on Friday, October 15, 2010 , 8:39 PM

So I got back Bio and Chem today. Was terrible! I was not expecting such shitty grades at all! I had confidence ya and then booms, it flew right pass me! Esp bio, I put in a hell lot of effort! Gosh. Maths and econs left to get back. I dunno wad I'm gonna do. If I retain, I'm gonna miss my classmates hell lot that I'll prolly start crying like I did today. If not for Jessie Wang, I dunno wad I wld've done! The moment I stepped into Chem lesson after Bio, she was like "H1 how?" I just shook my head and walked away. And then she came running to me and talked me into cheering up. And there was DY too who tapped me on the shoulder and said, its ok, cheer up. Though DY, it is really impossible to. Hahaha. But I really do appreciate the efforts. So I was really mood out for chem and Ms Ng got me really irritated when she was like, I'll give u back ur papers only the last 15min of the lesson. Like wts! I was HOPING atleast chem wld've made my day. But obviously that didn't happen. But k, chem results were better than bio's. But after adding everything, can I still get an E to pass? I dunno. And I still need Maths and econs coz I know my bio's really gone case. And gosh, ECONS?! I really have no clue wad's gonna happen to that as I heard that majority failed their case study. And I put in a HELL LOT OF EFFORT INTO ECONS AS WELL MIND U! Kudos to me! K if I do retain, I'll def change my H1 next year! But ahhhh, the thought of retaining and spending one more year? Oh my gawd. I rather go jump off from the building than face embarassemnt la. But ofcoz, I'm not gonna do that but at the same time, I dunno wad to do too. How is it that I study so freaking hard and yet get grades like that, not even an on-the-dot pass can, and EVERYBODY else who study either last minute or barely enough or sleep during lectures and tutorials (practically during the whole of lessons, I wonder WHY THEY EVEN COME TO SCHOOL LIKE THAT) are able to atleast pass? God, what is wrong with you?!

Ugh, wadeva, I'm freaking angry. And HOW THE F*** AM I SUPPOSED TO CARRY ON WITH FREAKING MT AND PW W/O EVEN KNOWING IF I'LL BE ABLE TO PROMOTE?!

And hey, since when did I get this stupid?

Ugh, wadeva, Goodbye.
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