on Saturday, April 3, 2010 , 12:25 PM
I almost deleted this crap but realised later that I didn't have the heart to :) Muahahaha!

Anyways, you know when you were young, you try so hard to please the 'grown-ups' that everything you do, you try and do it right. In an attempt to do that, some things can go wrong. And when they find out that you've done the wrong thing, they would scold you and maybe even pull your morale down so low. How could you have known then that wad you did was wrong? At that moment, the excitement you had to prove to 'them' that you're good, vanishes and it all boils down to feeling like dirt and that you're of no use at all. Its weird why I rmbed this all of a sudden but it just got me thinking if I made the right choice by quitting canoe. It has been a few weeks now since I quitted, devoting the rest of my time to dance. I guess its only natural for a PA person to do PA again like how a sports person do sports again. But does that mean PA aren't cut out for sports and that sports aren't cut out for PA? Or maybe is it just me? Why the segregation? Why not just follow wad you want? Then the question hits me : "Naz, wad do you want? You can't have the best of both worlds."

And I'm still pondering over that. I am not a quitter, I know. But to want smth, dun you need the passion for it? Wad is my passion? I know, deep down that it has always been abt performing. That's wad I've always liked. But i also noe deep down that I like training up and feeling fit! And getting all those medals from competitions! So here comes the question now that I am stuck in between. Wad do I want?

I'll ponder over that but meanwhile, tmr's Aratana competition and we got to make it in! Wish us luck! :) I can't wait! :) Now i gotta go get ready, going to my Aunt's place! And i gotta finish all my homeworks today! Oh I am done with the PI crap! Handed in the first draft but i think its gonna come back with loads of red marks.! I was half asleep while writing it! Haha, because I was dng it at 2+ am and in the midst of being half conscious, some bio stuff came up in the PI! Thank god I looked at it again b4 handing it up! HAHA! How weird. This is wad happens when u do smth in a half conscious mind e day after a bio test! HAHA! Yet again, its amazing how the brain works! :)

HAHA! See ya! ;) Feels so good to be back! :)

P.S. The priorities are set but rite now I am stuck in between the mind and the heart. One says yes while the other asks, you sure about this? which do i choose? :'(

P.S.S It sucks to have so many quesions running in your head!

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