on Saturday, September 19, 2009 , 6:31 AM
I was observing someone today then i realised something. People do tend to be selfish at times but then again everyone's fighting to survive in this hectic world and at times their own interest comes first before others'. I used to think that even my friends were as such and it made me wonder why they've changed like tht. Is it bcoz of exams? Is it bcoz they've grown unappreciative of the things u did? I dunno. But i do know tht wad i thought initially was wrong. People tend to look selfish or unappreciative but the reason behind it, could be juz due to simple stuff such as exam stress not thtat they're really like tht. They may have juz forgotten it for a while. I guess even i tend to change in stress. So i guess everyone else is the same. We are all humans and i guess tht's wad tht makes e world go round =) Haha! So the truth is we are all selfish at times la. Maybe some have a bit more of tht while some have it lesser. Yup, Justin was right. You learn something new everyday! Haha! I need the philospher's advise in future! Haha!

And i also realised something else, the reason behind people's ego. There could be a few things. One, jealousy. Another, trying so hard to be perfect. And the third, Arrogance. I think I've come across all three different groups of people. Especially the first and the third. But the main reason why egoness sprouts is because Humans are afraid to spell out their feelings. They are not sure if they can trust tht particular person they're saying it to or they may just be afraid of what the other party thinnks. The truth is, we all need some time to think about things first. We all need space. But the length of it, is what tht we have to be watchful of. Sometimes time doesn't heal everything.

And friendship. What is friendship? Yea Rupini u made me think about tht by posting it in ur blog. If that post was referring to me, I guess we've got lots of things to talk about and sort out. Bcoz i can see that in this case its not just me who is assuming things but u are too. And assuming things is not wrong. But it is wrong when u let it get over u. Like i said we all need the time and space to think things out. I trust my move and i trust u. I dun think the decision i made last year was wrong. But i dunno if u do. And yup u're right i did assume quite alot of things but i've never not stooped down or tiptoed over to think about ur intentions and juz why u do certain things. If you know me well i think you should know that I'm not of such. If tht post was really referring to me, then its obvious tht u haven't known me well enough. Well maybe i haven't too. So it is time we sort things out instead of having such weird moments which as u noe its not the first time. And maybe after that we'll make the right decision which i think u noe wad i'm referring to.

Other than that, one more week of prelims to go. And its Hari Raya tmr! Oh gosh! Like in between prelims! I dun think i'm gonna have fun celebrating it this year. Then again its not as if it was fun every other year. Haha! Anyways. 4 more papers to go! All the best to me! ACJC, i dunno if I'm cut out to join you. But I'm not giving up deary! Haha! And as for A-Maths, U know i love u! So dun make this hard for me! Why are u dropping like crazy this year! From an A to C!!! Nono!!! Upup ok! Pls! Its very demoralising if i do not get an A for both my Maths! GOSH! I thot i rocked at Maths? Ok i guess not now! Haiz! People have faith in me(I'm surprised actually!) Haha! So dun let them down! It has been a long time since i heard people actually telling me tht they've got faith in me! Mdm priya, Mdm Hamidah and Liang Yueh, I wldn't let u people down! At least i hope! Hahas!

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