Where Life Begins(:

2010-10-24T16:46:00.001+08:00

Hello ppl I've moved! :)

http://awesome-nazira.tumblr.com/

This place will still be here, taking up space, filled with my old memories :)

Goodbye! Its kinda sad though, I'm crying :(

HAHA! :D

2010-10-23T16:39:00.002+08:00

Its raining right now :( And I was supposed to meet my group mates at JP to do a dry run for our OP. Now, we gotta wait once the rain settles down :( Rain rain go away, come again another day :( K, wadeva! Hahahaha!

My OP speech has freaking reached 6mins! I'm damn screwed! We've got another round of presentation on Mon and this time its the vendors who will be accessing us. I pray pray pray that everything goes well and that Ms Foo doesn't scold us as she did Pooja's group! *Crosses fingers*

Oh and the gang came over just now! :) We celebrated Shawn's birthday but as we were setting up the cake, he oredi saw! :( Our faces were all epic! Shawn, me and Mangala all practically froze in our positions! Hahahaha! And so we drama-ed all the way making sure that Shawn is supposed to act surprised at his 'birthday surprise' which he oredi know that was gonna happen -.- hahaha! Oh well.

It has been long, great to see them today! :) Sometimes I only wish everything was like how they used to be though :( Haha, but oh well, that's life, things change, they never remain as they are and so we just have to adapt ourselves.

Everything will be ok :)

Now, let me get back to my OP and WR! Hahahaha! :)

Byebye! :)

2010-10-23T07:48:00.002+08:00

HELLO! :D

I made friends with Mr Hiap yesterday! We became best friends oredi! Hahahahaha! He is really nice :)

Gang is coming over to ma place today! Its gonna be chaotic! Can't wait! Hahahahaha!

And I would be leaving blogger soon :( So enjoy the last few posts on my blog! Che! Hahahaha!

I wonder if anybody even reads this! Hahahaha!

Kk, goodbye! Needa do OP! :D

2010-10-22T00:01:00.004+08:00

Weeeeeeeeee! I'm crazy wee early in e mornings! Maybe Oli's rite, I do have issues! HAHAHAHA! K, wadeva.

PW's driving me crazy! Thankfully, WR's due like next week! The actual one I mean. So far we hv done like 4 drafts of it. And FYI, THAT'S CRAZY!

Ahhhh, then just when I thot OP would not be a problem for me since I'm used to speaking, Ms Foo says I sound like a debater when I talk and that I have that arrogant tone -.- wth. So now, I need to do some adjustings. I mean the way we speak for debates cannot be incorporated everywhere rite? K, i get that. So now, I'm kinda nervous for that too which sucks coz I've never been afraid for speaking -.- Hahaha.

MT's like totally bullshit thx to Bala. Coz he is always picking on me in class and telling me to shut up or to stop laughing -.- And today, I sorta finished my work early so I took Pooja's eraser and started scribbling on the table. Then he called me out and asked me to stop VANDALISING! -.- wth! And then he asked me if that was a WRITING ART! WTS! CRAZY FELLOW! I miss Mrs Subas! :( Hahahaha. But k, just one more week, I shall hold on since after which, MT will be outta my life for good!

15th Nov is most anticipated for! So, FASTER COME! I NEED TO KNOW IF I'M PROMOTED OR NOT!

Plus, there are so man events in school! OIC, workshadowing, SCM, OGL, adiperukku n SYF. I'm in a dilemma about OGL. The sign up form is right in front of my face but I dunno if I should esp since my results oredi suck big time! But Jessie says it'll be good if Pooja and I join e crew coz we're simply CRAZY when we get together! Hahahaha! And they need ppl like tht. But I really dunno, still considering! Should I or Should I not?? (Peels flower petals) Hahaha.

K then, tmr's e last day of NORMAL lessons, thank god! They are all so boring!! N plus e only thing tht is in my head is PW most of the time! Haha. Next week I'll end super early everyday! Weeeeeeee! I better start revising for MT like this weekend! I WANT AN A!! :D

People in my class say they wanna go poly, so sad :( coming to think of it, if Oli goes, i'm gonna be a bit sad too. Coz she's always scolding me and asking me to shut up and telling me that i need e mental hospital! hahaha. Then if she wldn't be there next year... :( Haiz, nvm we'll wait for 15th first! :) *Keeps fingers crossed!*

Alrighty then, I shall continue editing my WR, or maybe I should just go to sleep or else my voice is gonna sound like a guy's tmr! -.- Hahaha! School's getting a bit lifeless :( Can't wait for Dec when we S12 girls go shopping tgt! Weeeeeeee! :D Gosh, my Dec is filled with activities! :( Good luck to me!

Haha,

Goodbye! :)

2010-10-21T21:49:00.003+08:00

In life, shit really happens.

Sometimes I wonder why such things have to happen. I mean, yes, life ain't easy as anyone would want it to be, but sometimes, its just too much. Sometimes I really wished I had clear answers to things I want. And I know I'm not e only one :) Shit happens, yea, but we'll get through, eventually :)

Coz girls may be emotional creatures, but we are tougher than u think! :)

2010-10-20T22:28:00.003+08:00

Funny world :)

PW madness.

MT's irritating.

Oh well, few more weeks anyway :)

Good luck 'A'level-ers!! Time is running REAL SHORT! O.o

2010-10-19T23:56:00.002+08:00

Stupid piece of shit.

Just go and die.

Thank you :)

2010-10-19T23:44:00.000+08:00

Ahhhhhh, liars.

2010-10-19T21:50:00.000+08:00

Fickle minded much?

Dun understand.

2010-10-18T00:15:00.001+08:00

Till 15th Nov comes, I cannot rest in peace. I'm prepared for both sides of the story. Bring it on :)

School tmr! Goodbye! :)

2010-10-17T11:07:00.000+08:00

Where's the FAST FORWARD button?

*Screams and pulls hair*

2010-10-16T21:28:00.002+08:00

Shikin told me to tell this to myself: "I WILL PROMOTE! I WILL PROMOTE! I WILL PROMOTE!" Hahahaha and Durga told me to be optimistic and not to be sceptical. Visha said she's with me and that I'm not alone. DY and Shikin said that they are here for me as a friend no matter wad.

So sweet rite?

I've got such great friends! Hahahaha!

Oh I forgot to mention abt the J2 farewell assembly on Friday. Was really a sad thing. Got me reminded of last year's graduation :( Which made me understand exactly how the J2s must've been been feeling! :(

So on Friday PJ said goodbye to its 2010 J2s, wishing them good luck for their As which, if I'm not wrong, is 3 weeks away. Time flies really fast eh? I liked Adam's speech. The first day at school, the first friend u made, the first tutorial lesson, the first lecture, the first of bla bla bla. Imagine the no. of relationships that we build with people along the way in that about 12 years of education. Imagine the hardships, the victories, the fun, the crazy moments, the sad moments, the anxious moments and every special moment they spent with the people around them. Yes, time does fly really fast. I felt kinda sad for them but then again, happiness as they are all moving on to the next stage of their lifes :) I wish them all the best and may god bless. I know this batch would do well coz the school believes that they are a batch with lots of potential compared to ours! Hahaha! And may they make the school proud! :)

I rmb telling this to Mangala and Durga on the week b4 we got our posting results this jan. "I cannot imagine making new friends all over again". I dunno why, but in the whole gang, 4 out of 5 of us got into JJ and I was e only lucky/unlucky (I wasn't sure of then) who got into PJ. Imagine life w/o besties :'( But I made new freinds here, great people and great relationships.

On the second day of school, here in PJ, i saw you, you, the look alike. I dunno why there must be a look alike here in PJ, but sadly, neither u nor I could do anything about it. I liked seeing u around because u were EXACTLY (in every possible way) like him. My luck or ur unluckiness to see someone always staring at u? Hahaha! I guess soon u noticed and I dunno wad happened in between. But I do notice and if I am responsible for any of it in any way (though I'm not sure in wad possible way it could be) I'm really sry. All the best for the 'A's and make the school proud as much as u did ur team :) I'm still gonna miss seeing you around! Hahaha!

Kk, I still have PW to continue with so I'll catch up with life soon!

See ya! :)

2010-10-16T11:23:00.000+08:00

But then again, if I retain, I'm gonna miss all my classmates so badly :'(

2010-10-16T08:52:00.002+08:00

If I'm gonna retain, I'm up for it. Maybe I'll start by changing my H1. I'm def not going to go into a poly. Coz I know, that ain't a route for me. I'll noe whether I get promoted or not on the 15th Nov. Till then, I'll just take everything that comes :) Which means MT and PW too :) Even if I get all Es and get promoted, it ain't gonna serve a purpose next year, I'm still gonna be scrapping my way through J2 and end up doing really badly for the 'A's. So wad's the point? We'll see how it goes.

2010-10-15T22:01:00.002+08:00

Give me some space to feel tired and down and unmotivated and uninspired. Come on, my results sucked. I'm tired of doing or feeling all e RIGHT things. Let me dwell upon my own sorrow first. I'll come back up, but I need time. And I dunno how. Just dun disturb me for now, I'll find my own way up. TYVM.

2010-10-15T21:15:00.002+08:00

I feel as though my life's really screwed. Its like the sinking feeling again after 'O' levels. Like that, I dun think I can make it in life anymore. My god.

2010-10-15T20:39:00.002+08:00

So I got back Bio and Chem today. Was terrible! I was not expecting such shitty grades at all! I had confidence ya and then booms, it flew right pass me! Esp bio, I put in a hell lot of effort! Gosh. Maths and econs left to get back. I dunno wad I'm gonna do. If I retain, I'm gonna miss my classmates hell lot that I'll prolly start crying like I did today. If not for Jessie Wang, I dunno wad I wld've done! The moment I stepped into Chem lesson after Bio, she was like "H1 how?" I just shook my head and walked away. And then she came running to me and talked me into cheering up. And there was DY too who tapped me on the shoulder and said, its ok, cheer up. Though DY, it is really impossible to. Hahaha. But I really do appreciate the efforts. So I was really mood out for chem and Ms Ng got me really irritated when she was like, I'll give u back ur papers only the last 15min of the lesson. Like wts! I was HOPING atleast chem wld've made my day. But obviously that didn't happen. But k, chem results were better than bio's. But after adding everything, can I still get an E to pass? I dunno. And I still need Maths and econs coz I know my bio's really gone case. And gosh, ECONS?! I really have no clue wad's gonna happen to that as I heard that majority failed their case study. And I put in a HELL LOT OF EFFORT INTO ECONS AS WELL MIND U! Kudos to me! K if I do retain, I'll def change my H1 next year! But ahhhh, the thought of retaining and spending one more year? Oh my gawd. I rather go jump off from the building than face embarassemnt la. But ofcoz, I'm not gonna do that but at the same time, I dunno wad to do too. How is it that I study so freaking hard and yet get grades like that, not even an on-the-dot pass can, and EVERYBODY else who study either last minute or barely enough or sleep during lectures and tutorials (practically during the whole of lessons, I wonder WHY THEY EVEN COME TO SCHOOL LIKE THAT) are able to atleast pass? God, what is wrong with you?!

Ugh, wadeva, I'm freaking angry. And HOW THE F*** AM I SUPPOSED TO CARRY ON WITH FREAKING MT AND PW W/O EVEN KNOWING IF I'LL BE ABLE TO PROMOTE?!

And hey, since when did I get this stupid?

Ugh, wadeva, Goodbye.

2010-10-14T02:11:00.002+08:00

I didn't know I made people's day :)

YAY! :)

I miss you :( which makes me an idiot :)

Screwed life. Lessons shoud start asap :D Oh man, I really need a life. HAHAHA!

K, I'll try and sleep. Goodbye!

Pooja's blog is so nice, coz it has alot of me in it! YAY! :) Hahaha.

Byebye! :)

2010-10-14T02:01:00.002+08:00

Am sorta prepared for OP tmr!

Wish me luck!

But now, I can't sleep.

Haiz, sucks.

I hate why I'm like that.

Hate you.

2010-10-13T22:51:00.005+08:00

This week started off really bad, it still is bad. Dun like it at all. But anyway, I'll start from the top.

So Monday I had hip hop enrichment! It was cool coz I learnt a new type of dance but it was difficult, really requires alot of discipline and a great amount of effort if I wanna learn it in the future. But ahhhh, we'll see how. I've got plans :) Plus I went up on stage! How cool was that? But nah, was just for a while, no big deal. We were supposed to coreograph steps pertaining to each body parts for 4 counts of 8 or is 8 counts of 4? Ahhhhh, 4 x 8 la k! Then me and another girl from my group went up. I was saboed, so I saboed back e one who saboed me, since I had e liberty to pick one more person! Hah! Haha, but it was fun, erm, ok la. Haha.

Then Tuesday was MT and PW day. Really boring day! School ended at like 11.30am! I got back my MT paper too and I got a freaking B overall! Like WTH! K I admit, I didn't study for MT coz I paid more attention to the other H1s and H2s but I did not have an intention to do that at an expense of getting a B for MT! That was totally unacceptable! But ahhhh, hopefully, e sacrifice was worth it. In other words, I really hope my other subjects are better off. *Cross fingers* And then since we were released early, Pooja, Visha and I decided to go catch a movie. Yes it is my 2nd movie after promos! Like my god, I feel so happy! I'm finally having a life! Nat asked me tdy, "I thought JC ppl do not have a life?" Great, so this is wad people think of us. TYVM. Hahahaha! So moving on.

Wednesday, oh that's today we had learning journey. My class, S13 and S14 went to this envision gallery. Its some weird place in Environment building, opposite Sheraton hotel. So we were all there. Tour guide was telling us things about I dunno wad. Coz I wasn't paying attention. Shikin's camera distracted me. And I was snapping photos of anything and everything for that pass 1hr ++ Felt good. Coz the morning started out really badly. And I was so sad that I didn't have my cam with me :( So I thank Shikin from the bottom of my heart for lending me her cam and making my day :) Though I think 90% of her cam's memory space is filled with today's pic!! O.o Hahahaha! And then also, I thank Visha, Pooja & Atiqah for comforting me and trying to get me off my grumpy mood early in the morning. I HATE IT WHEN ANYBODY SPOILS MY MOOD EARLY IN THE MORNING! AND I MEAN ANYBODY! K wadeva. So I had physio after that at 3. Visha and Vathsala accompanied me :) So nice of them :) Saw my cousin and Ms Phua along the way. JP is such a common place. Haha. And good news, I do not have to go for physio anymore! cool or wad! But that is if my neck probs do not come back again. And I hope my neck gets back its proper curvature again. Imagine a straight neck! God! But its freaky painful! Haha, k so moving on. Caught up with Janah, Sirin, Anita, Yukie and Nat like just just now at JP. Freaking long since we last met! So we got dinner and walked to the park area behind JP, near SAFRA and we tried to look for a place to sit n eat our food but the place was invaded by rats and frogs and gosh, wad not. So we had to keep changing from one place to another. Was epic funny. We had to rush thru our food to prevent the invasion of more rats! None of us could eat our food in peace! Hahaha! Was really epic funny! Hahaha! Then after that we just slacked and... slacked? Hahaha. Pretty soon I had to leave, so yea, here I am.

And I've got PW to do. Tmr's OP presentation and I gotta rush thru my alcohol tutorial too. Ms Ng has threatened us that she would not return us our chem paper tmr if we do not finish our tutorial. So yea :( I dun even know if I've got time to do it. But oh well, PW comes first for now :P Hahaha! Its supposed to be break day after promos, but its not exactly break yet. I think Nat maybe is rite after all. We dun rly hv a life till our 2 years of JC ends. Which is why my classmates and I have oredi planned for PROM! Hahaha!

Ahhh, so anyways, finally meeting up with e rest was good but I did feel a bit withdrawn. No idea why. Maybe bcoz I had been upset since morn or maybe coz I really didn't know wad to talk to the rest anymore. Like u noe maybe coz now we are at diff places, so no common topic. But anyways, we really gotta thank Janah for coordinating this and making it happen! Hahaha! SO THANK YOU JANAH KAREEM! :D

And so, its back to work for me. Still kinda pissed but guess, life moves on rite? Tmr's results day! And I prolly would be getting back all my H2 papers, so good luck to me. Plus all e best to me and my groupmates for tmr's OP. Lets go kick asses and get it right this time! Well I'm ready for the kicking ass part coz I'm so angry that I can vent all my anger on it, but ahhhh oh well, lets not turn violent. I'll lose my beauty. K wth, i should stop.

Goodbye.

2010-10-10T23:58:00.004+08:00

My sissy's studying for her last PSLE paper tmr! Its their science paper. I know, she's growing really slowly! If only she was just 1/2/3 years younger than me! That'll be cool! HAHAHAHA! Oh well, she seems really relaxed though for her PSLE when I rmbed being so paranoid and nervous for it 5 years back! HAHAHA! Time flies so fast eh? Makes me miss sec sch more :( Not that I dun like PJ, but how long more? 1 more year? Hopefully, if I get promoted (looks up at God with those pitiful eyes) :) Hahaha. And then it'll be e uni life if I get in that too and then work and bla bla bla. Yuling, Shikin and I were just talking about it e day b4 chem paper! Hahaha! Yea time flies, but that's life. So lets move on :) We were even talking about how many kids we want and about pregnancy and bla bla! hahahaha! yea i noe, we were supposed to be studying for chem! hahahaha!

Ahhhh, anyways, i rmb those PSLE days, I was so nervous till I'll cry and tell my mommy that I'm afraid that I'll go into NA stream! Coz my prelims were.... that bad. Hahahaha! And then eventually when I got my results, e actual one, everybody was happy! seriously, my results were just average. Any 25+ or 26+ scorer would've felt so, but to my mum, she was darn happy! I made her day! And I dun always :( Coz, the truth, I am a difficult child to deal with and fine, I agree, but I do try and be better. But u know, sometimes, i ain't as perfect as I wanna be. And now, I'm learning to accept that :) Kudos to me! :) Hahaha. But I will try and be better mommy! :) Hahaha. And then I entered sec sch and I rmb complaining to my mum about all my friendship problems! She would get really worked up at those. Hahahah. Then there came a time whereby we stopped sharing things, I became more independent and we hardly had the time for each other, things took a real big turn! trust me, those sec 3 periods was really a tough time for me and my mum. But eventually I learnt and changed for the better. Sec 4 year was awesome, yes we did have fights here and there, but no relationships are perfect ya? 'O' level times were real difficult. Again, the same tears and cried to my mum about not being able to make it into a JC. And again e same ave scores, but this time, mommy weren't happy at all :( That broke my heart :( Though she didn't show it :( I rmb on e day of results, while talking to her over the phone, I cracked up e moment I heard her voice. really embarassing but thank god Mdm Hamidah was there! hahaha.

But oh well, I'm working harder for the 'A's. I wanna prove people wrong too! But there she asks me, u can cope or not or wanna go poly? There, that did it, broke my heart again. Though I know her good intentions but oh well, I'm just waiting for my promo results because I know deep inside that e JC pathway ain't gonna be easy but I'm half way thru it plus made great friends too, I ain't giving up! I'm not that easy you know! hahaha. Plus I put in a hell lot of effort for e promos! Man, all those days at sch with not enough sleep and bad headaches. But hey, everybody goes through this rite? Hahahaha, so pls god, help me get promoted! hahaha! And in future, hopefully, I can make her proud again, this time, it has to be something e both of us are proud of. Hahahaha.

Anyways, all e best for my sis and I hope she makes my mum happy too! Bcoz she's another difficult child who hardly touches her book! I had to sit with her to make sure she studied. See, I am a nice sis after all! They should have something like a sister/brother's day ya know! K wadeva, am crapping away! Hahaha!

Hiphop day tmr / OIC interview! Hope Pooja and I make it through! Please God! :) Hahaha.

Goodbye! :)

2010-10-09T11:48:00.003+08:00

omgomgomgomgomg!

I can't believe this! Just e day b4 yest I was talking about balls n I dun click! Then yesterday . . .

So we had inter-house games in school. Actually I was placed as reserve for netball. Bcoz they couldn't find anybody else -.- hahaha, but I really didn't wanna play coz I can't. hahaha.

So wad happened is that Atiqah was playing the WD position and while playing, I dunno wad exactly happened but she fell and sprained her hip area real bad. So there were 2 reserves. Oli called me to sub but I shook my head damn hard n said NO! CALL CINDY! SHE'S BETTER THAN ME! But Cindy was sick too n she went to the GO to get the sign out form. Just when she was coming back to tell us that she was leaving, Oli called her to sub. She too played. Then I realised she was sick and felt damn bad for asking her to sub when I cld've done it since I was ok. So after that match, she really had to leave and there was no other way, I had to sub. I was damn nervous! I didn't noe any rules for netball! We had time before our next match. We were against owens next. N i really wanted us to thrash them since we lost to them during tug of war. We cld've been first if we beat them u noe! K wadeva, leave that. Moving on about yesterday.

So during the break, Pooja taught me the rules, passing and defending. So many rules all at one go. But ok, I absorbed, thankfully. So the match started. Pooja told me last few words. ANd then that was it, I was alone! Happened to be, the person I was defending, was someone both Pooja n I didn't like at all, so it made it easier for me to play rough. But I didn't know u cannot play rough for netball. HAHAHA! That scene was epic funny! Oh well, I defended, was good. The owens player, playing the WA position was quite fast too. But my job was to make sure she didn't get the ball. And ok, I failed a few times but I did try. And did defend too. I tried my best and ofcoz I did play rough here and there and the whistle was blown thx to me but I was too dumb to realise it was bcoz of me! hahaha! So my team mates had to keep telling me wad to do! Hahaha! I felt so bad for them. Hahaha!

Alas, eventually we beat owens with a score of 17-0! Nice! And eventually, we were the overall champions too! Haha! After the match against owens, Wen Zhi and Atiqah were telling me that I played damn rough and the girl from owens whom I defended even complained to Atiqah saying I kept definding her & that she didn't like it. Tat was really stupid bcoz that was my job! Wad a loser! Oh well and anyway, Pooja says that this ain't a sport for me at all! Hahaha! Coz I LIKE to play rough! But anyways, they said I wasn't that bad on court. Great to hear that but I cld've done better if I had better training. Oh well, we won anyway! Hahaha!

I learnt a few things yesterday though! Though I kept saying I didn't wanna play, inside I really wanted to. But I only wished that I could if I was trained. My teammates were all trained netball players. And I wasn't at all! I wished damn hard! And my wish came true at an expense of Atiqah hurting her hip and Cindy falling sick. Hahaha! So sorry guys! But if Pooja, Oli and Atiqah didn't help me out, I wld not have done it! So thanks to them as well! :) So then I realised what is the meaning of team sports! Its not just about being a good player and winning medals FOR the team but it is about winning medlas WITH the team and being good players overall. Like clarissa said, if a team only has one or two good players, the team may not make it after all. Everybody has to do their part, everybody has to be good and everybody has to put in their all. I did just that. For a person with no netball experience, it was good exposure! And I really enjoyed it! Man, I shld've joined T-rug! Since I like playing rough. But oh well! Haha. And I also learnt that if I didn't try yesterday, wldn't have known wad more I cld do. And hey, my defence skill weren't that bad! Personally, they weren't perfect but I did give myself a shot and I was proud of that. There, yesterday felt so accomplish-yfying! Hahaha! Great time to bond with class too! We were all CRAZZZZZZY! Hahaha!

But now, I am sick. With muscle ache and flu and a damn bad sore throat :( Haiz :( Hahaha!

On monday we will be having enrichment programme, and I am gonna be learning hip hop! Can't wait! :) On Friday. we'll be getting back the results! Darn scared for that, but I've got a little bit of confidence. We'll see how it goes though! :)

& for now, byebye! :)

2010-10-07T23:34:00.003+08:00

HELLO!

The promos are finally over! :D Today was our LAST paper! After which classmates n I went to go catch Charlie St Cloud. Zac Efron's in it!!!! :D Hahahaha. A freaky freaky LOOOOOOONG time since I last caught a movie! It NEVER happened this year at all! Coz plans ALWAYS seemed to get ruined! HAHAHAHA! My life is so . . . Hahaha! Nah, just kidding! :D

Anyways, e papers were ok! Chem seemed to be e most do-able, followed by maths then econs and BIO, which were harder! :( HOPEFULLY i can pass all! kinda worried for econs n bio though :( I kinda regret doing Bio as a H1 but there's no point now rite? :( Haiz. Oh well. And god, pls, i pray, i dun wanna get retained! SO PLS HELP ME! :D

And, there's inter-house games tmr -.- and they are all ball games. And since balls n I dun click, I'm just gonna be taking pictures for everybody else n OH! I'm gonna be painting my nails too! Jessie and Pooja are bringing me all e colours! Then i just choose! YAY! I'm such a free rider! HAHAHAHA! Oh well, tht's wad friends are for rite?! HAHAHAHAHAHA!

Oh and Charlie St Cloud is an awesome awesome show! HAHAHAHAHA!

& alright, am really tired rite now, mentally AND physically. Am gonna sleep throughout this weekend. After tht I needa carry on with PW, MT, performance, aadiperukku planning, SYF, plannings for gang home visiting, Mrs Aidil's baby shower and plannings for class outings.

Awesome. I should just be an event planner :) I think I'll do a great job!

HAHAHAHA!

Goodbye! :D

2010-10-03T23:44:00.003+08:00

SHAWN'S GONNA SHAVE HIS HEAD! YAY! AM SO EXCITED TO SEE HIS NEW LOOK! WEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE! :D

2010-09-22T20:14:00.004+08:00

Sooooo people ain't just selfish, they are two faced too. And from where I've come from, this doesn't seem like a big deal given e fact that I've been through quite a fair bit. But the fact that it has to repeat itself again, it kinda hurts. Or maybe I am just assuming, I dunno. But from how I see it, what else could it be? I ain't that dumb for your info.

But nonetheless, this is the world. People smile when they dun mean it. They say yes when they actually mean no. And they say love when its infatuation. None of it is true. And none of it actually exist. All that's important, is I, I, I and more Is. After all, it is a competitive society ain't it? We live in a world where people and relationships are taken advantage of. Which makes me wonder, how more evil can SOMEONE possibly get? Or maybe, I'm just too NICE.

And anyways, I've got better things to worry about. TYVM.

And PS, I am angry, not at them, but at myself. Just, myself.

Oh well, 4 days left.

Goodbye.

2010-09-19T21:52:00.003+08:00

HELLO Term 4 week 2 :)

3 more weeks before I get proper sleep :)

All the best to J2s for their prelims btw! :)

1 more week for them!

2010-09-12T23:46:00.004+08:00

5 QUALITIES OF A PENCIL

A boy was watching his grandmother write a letter. At one point, he asked, "Are you writing a story about what we've done? Is it a story about me?" His grandmother stopped writing her letter & said to her grandson, "I am writing about you, actually, but more important than the words is the pencil I'm using. I hope you will be like this pencil when you grow up." Intrigued, the boy looked at the pencil but it did not seem very fascinating. The boy scratched his head in bewilderment.

"That depends on how you look at things. It has 5 qualities which, if you manage to hang on to then, will make you a person who is always at peace," the grandmother continued to explain.

"First quality: You are capable of great things, but you must never forget that there is a hand guiding your steps. We call that hand, God.

Second quality: Now & then, I have to stop writing and use a sharpener. That makes the pencil suffer a little, but afterwards, it is much better. You, too, must learn to bear certain pains & sorrows then they will make you a better person.

Third quality: The pencil always allows us to use an eraser to rub out any mistakes. This means that correcting something we did is not necessarily a bad thing, it helps to keep us on the road to justice.

Fourth quality: What that matters in a pencil is not its wooden exterior but the lead used. So always pay attention to what is happening inside you.

Finally, the pencil's fifth quality: It always leaves a mark. In just the same way, you should know that everything you do in life will leave a mark, so try to be conscious of that in your every action."

2010-09-12T01:22:00.006+08:00

A Complicated World

2 more weeks for promos!

27th September - 07th October

Would most prob be back here only once it all ends.

Al the best to me and the rest of the J1s!

For now, GOODBYE! :)

2010-09-09T17:22:00.002+08:00

& all we do is just waste our lifes away thinking and thinking and thinking.

Just BRAVO.

2010-09-06T20:44:00.002+08:00

I've got a REALLY HUGE ego.

Ain't good :(

2010-09-05T21:38:00.001+08:00

& then I realised, I wldn't be able to forget.

Ahhhhhhh, screw this.

2010-09-04T22:08:00.003+08:00

When I think about it now, I do feel stupid.

Haiz... how dumb.

Oh well. Promos in 3 weeks time! Really short! O.o

Talked to Mangala yesterday, so happy! :) Her family is so fun and noisy too! I likeeeeeee! I miss that in mine as well :(

Hahaha. Anyways, wish me luck for promos and goodbye! :D

2010-09-02T12:59:00.003+08:00

Back to square 1. I just need to move on. Its gonna be hard. I know. But I'll pull through. Its so weird why. I can't explain it myself either. But I will,

eventually.

2010-09-01T22:43:00.002+08:00

Sometimes I wish I can go back in time and change some things that happened. Not everything, but just some things. But anyways, thinking about it is not gonna gonna create miracles right?

Haha.

Emo or wad?! -.- Nvm. Tmr's e-learning day in school! Which = NO SCHOOL! :D So we've got one more day off! YAY! :D To all the KIDS going back to school tmr, HAVE FUN! (said with 100% sarcasm :D) HAHAHA!

So its 1st September oredi! O.o Promos is EXACTLY 27 days away! May all go well :)

Goodbye :)

2010-08-31T21:49:00.003+08:00

& OH! TMR'S SEPTEMBER!

JUST FANTASTIC :)

-.-

2010-08-31T21:10:00.006+08:00

HELLO! :D

Today was nice! :)

Just too tired and only wished ppl were more enthu around :( Oh well.

So we started the day with ACES day big walk. Which was crazy! Pooja and I were damn high when we started. Then ppl started running. So unfair. Its big WALk not big RUN! Should've shot them down! HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA! Just kidding! I didn't really bother anyway :P HAHAHAHAHA! Wanted to walk tgt with the class. But the class itself was despatched -.- Nvm. I wish our class would be MORE bonded then how it is now. Haiz, hopefully, in due time :) Anyways, was really tired after that. The food in the canteen had VERY nice smell! But sadly, I was fasting, so ya. HAHAHAHAHA! I felt as though I was gonna die any moment. But then after that we had Teacher's day concert! Which was REALLY GOOD! BETTER than the ones at JSS! Trust me! Everything is just so professional and PERFECT! Loved it! Especially the dance! But I only wished we danced too :( Haiz :( Miss dancing! :( Anyways, right after which, we rushed down to JSS bcoz JSSians ended at 12.30! And Teachers were rushing home too! :O So anyways, we cabbed down to JSS and reached on time. Saw Ms Lim when I went in. Was complaining to her about the demands for Bio in JC -.- HAHAHAHA! Then after which I joint the rest upsatirs outside the staffroom to see Mrs Aidil. They either laughed or stood shocked at my hair! -.- So hair, pls grow fast! I can't stand the DAILY embarassments at school! And Anita said I looked like a China doll -.- HAHAHAHA!

Nothing much at JSS though. Not EVERYBODY was there as well. But felt good to finally meet the gang! :) Actually I wasn't really enthu about going. But after seeing everybody, just changed my impression :) And everyone of us were really tired. Sadly. AFTER PROMOS! When there is lesser eye bags! Nicer skin! More pretty and less tired looking faces! And more imptly, LESS PIMPLES! :D HAHAHAHAHA! That sounded totally bimbo! But oh well! HAHA! Being in JSS again felt a bit weird. Dunno why. Maybe I'm too used to seeing the PJ envionment where majority of the facilities and surroundings are NEW unlike JSS where EVERYTHING is OLD! HAHAHAHA! But I did miss the oldness and to a certain extend, it felt good going back :) We left some msgs for our juniors in the EL notice board. Hope they see it :) HAHA!

So after JSS, followed the gang to Mac where they ate. All the memories at mac! Haha! But now mac has been reconstructed, so not so bad la. HAHA! And then after that went to SP to carry out my PW interview with SP, EEE lecturer. Went well :) Thank god :) But anyways, we've got loads to do by Fri! 3rd draft of WR is due then! O.o

And after that, came home AND FINALLY BROKE FAST! So happy drinking all he iced water! :D HAHAHAHAHAHA!

Wad a super long and tiring day! Am exhausted all over! Didn't get to say bye to Sirin though :( Sadly :( Hope to meet her and the rest as soon as promos are over! But as for now, since it is everybody's exam season, ALL THE BEST! :)

So anyways, tmr I am having PHYSIO! :O Can you believe it, I feel so OLD! *rolls eyes* Well my neck had been giving me prblems again this year. So I went to see the doc and he said that my neck bone structure is weird, which may be the reason why it is causing pain. So he told me to go for physio and see what happens after that -.- wth. I told this to the gang and they LAUGHED! -.-

HAHAHA! So now, needa go complete work! Have loads to complete! Exams in 4 weeks! Can't wait for it to end. I feel so dead after school EVERYDAY! :(

Hahaha!

Goodbye :)

2010-08-29T21:57:00.002+08:00

Having a really weird and stupid coversation with Jessie in fb now! HAHAHAHAHA!

Just got back from more Hari Raya shopping tdy! I thot everything was over on Fri, but noooooo, there was shoe shopping tdy! I act didn't wanna go, considering the fact that I had alot to do but u noe, its shopping, plus I didn't wanna say no to my mum, then get scolded, I very sad :( Sooooooo, I just went! :D So we stepped into Mondo and I picked the first shoe I liked! It was so BEAUTIFUL! I LOVED IT! So now, ITS MINE! :D YAY! YAY! YAY! :D U noe, shopping relives stress :) But now I feel like a spoilt kid -.- HAHAHAHAHAHA!

Kk, I've got loads to complete! And I totally forgot I was sitting for MT mock tmr, the one tht I missed last Wed! Haiz... SAD SAD LIFE :( Then after that I wanna go lot 1 and buy chopsticks for my hair! I'm in LOVE with them! :D Dun think I can go for the movie tmr though :( So sad :( HAHAHA!

ALRIGHT! Time to giddy up! Its week 10 tmr! Which = 4 more weeks to promos! May all go well and may I be promoted to J2 next year! Amin...

HAHAHAHAHA!

Byebye! :D

2010-08-28T00:05:00.004+08:00

HELLO! :D

Today was CCA photo taking day. We wore traditional costumes. I so didn't want to but was left with no choice in the end. So yea. Sadly :( so anyways, photoshoot was ok :) I did the chopstick hairstyle today! :D In an attempt to look v chi-na since my fringe oredi adds on to the effect. But too bad, my features do not make the cut! :P HAHA! BUT SERIOUSLY! I can't wait for my hair to grow! ITCHY FINGERS OF MINE, SHOULDN'T HAVE CUT IT AGAIN N THT TOO CUT WRONGLY NOW LOOK LIKE BANGS LIKE THAT -.- SO EMBARASSING TO GO SCH LIKE THAT, CAN'T EVEN PIN UP PROPERLY, HALF-WAY THRU LESSONS, IT STARTS TO DROP ONE BY ONE. AND EVERYTIME I COMPLAINT ABT MY HAIR TO POOJA, SHE JUST IGNORES ME, GETTING SICK N TIRED OF MY COMPLAINTS -.- HAIZ, why do I have to be born so weird & complicated?! I do the weirdest things and think the most complicated things on earth! HAHAHAHAHA! Oh well, I still like the way I am :)

So anyways, after photoshoot, I had to rush down to serangoon to do Hari Raya shopping! :D Mummy, Sis and Aunty were oredi there! After dinner, we carried on with shopping and tdy was most prob the FASTEST shopping we ladies ever did in our lifes! :D Basically my aunt, sis and mum oredi chose a suit for me. I just had to go in and try it on and the next min, I owned it! :D I love my clothes this year! :D Only prob is tht, it is red and my wardrobe is gonna turn into a red galore really REALLY soon! :D I like red u noe :) But I still prefer it colourful :D HAHA! Kay, wadeva!

Tdy was FUN except the whole concept of being indian and following your culture and so we HAVE to dress up like that for photo shoot and bla bla bla stuff. I'm sry, I kept having something to say to that but it just ain't me. I lose interest in those things ever since I came to PJ. Dun ask me why, coz I REALLY DUNNO! HAHA! PLUS! I've oredi finished my Hari Raya shopping! :D So I can RIP now! YAY! :D

Anyways, watching Step up 3D the coming Mon with classmates after school! :D Not confirmed yet but I HOPE IT WOULD BE! :D CAN'T WAIT FOR THAT! CAN U SENSE MY EXCITEMENT! :DDD HAHAHA! Then on Tues is Teacher's Day celeb cum ACES Day whereby we are gonna be doing the BIG WALK thingy! Its gonna be fun! But I dunno why people are like so ________ (I can't find the right word! HAHA!) about it. Oh well. I'm gonna be bringing my cam that day! :D Its gonna be colourful again with all the house colours! :D YAY! :D Haha! And then after which, I'll be making my way down to JSS! Juniors are telling me to come down + I gotta return the costumes + I gotta meet the teachers too! :D Wad's life w/o them! :D HAHA!

That's about it! Workshop tmr, followed by tuition = needa complete work tdy :( Its 12+ oredi. All the best to me. I shld go make coffee! HAHAHA! Byebye! :D

2010-08-22T14:46:00.004+08:00

Still, I love my life. I ain't perfect and I have made mistakes here and there. I know. But I correct them along the way. If everybody knew that this is how their life is gonna be then everybody would choose not to live it, or better still, everybody wld've oredi planned how to change them n live it for the better. That's not the way it works. No matter how we wish for it, that's not the way it works. The very essence to living is to not know what every second of one's lifes hold. If we do, then it'll just be a boring piece of shit. Problems come and go. But they dun stay. Wad stays are the values and the important lessons that we learn through it. And looking back at those, I'm happy I lived, the way I lived, maybe not in every aspect, but atleast for the most part :)

I'm an optimistic person and I know, things would be better. Atleast, I'll make it better :)

Another week at school tmr, can't wait to see my classmates! :) Its week 9 oredi. Jiayou everybody! 10 years down the road, when we look back at our lifes, those 12 years of school life is gonna be the best part. And I'm not gonna let it go for nuts, no matter how hard, in every aspect, life is right now :)

I miss my gang more than ever! :(

2010-08-20T20:56:00.004+08:00

If I could wish, I want to restart my life again, from the top.

But alas, I can only wish.

5 weeks left, nothing should go wrong.

2010-08-20T01:10:00.003+08:00

Quoted from Sirin!

" Whatever u give a woman, she will make it greater. Give her sperm, she will give u a baby. Give her a house, she will give u a home. Give her groceries, she will give u a meal. Give her a smile, she will give u her heart! She multiplies and enlarges what she is given. So if u give her crap, be ready to receive a ton of shit. "

YOG today was AWESOME! Saw ALOT of Angmohs! :D Bare bodied guys and a guy in pink swimming trunks -.- no comments. HAHA! The girls were going CRAZY! Oh, we went with S06. Pooja and I were e only extras from S12 -.- How 'cool'! HAHA! After the whole event, Dinner / Breakfast with Pooja, Aravind and Jerwin was so darn fun too! HAHAHAHA! Pictures up in facebook!

Reached home at 11pm. How nice. Just finished WR and now, I gotta study for my GP test tmr! Perfect :)

School tmr! And it is Friday which = the day with the most no. of breaks! :D YAY! :D But also = the day with Bio! :( *Faints* :(

Goodbye :)

2010-08-18T23:31:00.003+08:00

Maybe, I have been thinking too much after all. Its time to put a full stop to those.

Going to watch YOG swimming event tmr! Can't wait!

For now, goodbye :)

2010-08-16T20:13:00.006+08:00

I'm sick.

Tired.

Having a headache.

& Stressed.

Perfect :)

2010-08-15T19:57:00.005+08:00

School tmr!

Tie day tmr!

Chem, ACTUAL SPA tmr as well!

Kudos to me and to the whole of S12! :D

7 weeks left!

2010-08-13T20:52:00.007+08:00

I guess, at the end of the day, its a matter of whether we give in to such feelings or not. And how we accept it, if we do. It's a COMPLICATED cycle. Its true meaning, I think I wouldn't know just yet. But oh well, maybe when the time is right.

Mind over matter. Sometimes, maybe even, mind over heart.

Tuition tmr, sianzz.

Currently, super zonked out!

P.S. I think Backstreet Boys are CUTE & I think I'm falling in love with them! Weeeeeeeeeeeee! :D

Haha.

I feel like dancing :) and I miss doing it at JSS :(

Bye! :)

2010-08-12T20:57:00.002+08:00

HELLO! :D

I've got a FREAKING-NOT AWESOME AT ALL-SUPER DISGUSTING-BIO TEST tomorrow :D

And I needa continue studying.

But I just finished editing a certain part of GPP for PW. Oh btw the 2nd draft of WR was due today. I must say, I was very impressed with my whole team! Everyone did their part and it wasn't slip shot work at all! SO PROUD OF ALL OF THEM! :) First COMPLETE draft and was quite thick, so now we needa to spam it with alot of pics and extra extra elaboration! :D HAHAHAHA!

OH! OH! OH! Got back Econs CA4 and for the very first time in the whole of this year, I ACTUALLY PASSED AN ECONS ESSAY! YIPEEEEEEEE! :D But then again, it ain't promos yet :( Shit man :( Hopefully I pass that too! I WANNA FREAKING GO GERMANY!! :D And there's so much to look forward to once promos end! Can't wait! AND! Seniors are graduating at Hilton Hotel on e 6th of December! AND THE MUTTONS ARE COMING DOWN! THAT IS FREAKING AWESOME! SO UNFAIR! I WANNA GRADUATE THIS YEAR TOO! Ahhh, heck, hopefully next year would be BETTER and MORE AWESOME! YAY! :D

I'm probably the only Asshole who's even bothered about this -.-

Hahaha!

Byebye! :D

2010-08-10T17:45:00.003+08:00

Seeing this made me realise how much I miss EL! Though the words above has nothing to do with me at all! HAHAHAHAHAHAHA! Saw it while doing WR. And I am SO HAPPY TO ANNOUNCE THAT IT IS DONE! :D Well, haven't really edited everyhing as a whole yet only. HAHAHA!

Anyways, the holidays are almost coming to an end. I feel refreshed enough to start school! :D Shawn was showing me some JJ NDP pics and I was showing him some PJ ones. All these, while I was doing my WR -.- HAHAHAHAHA! Anyways, really miss them! And I can't wait for our promos to end! Saw Mangsy in the CCA leaders pic that they took during National Day! So proud of her! :) Wonder why PJ doesn't have those things! HAHAHAHAHA!

Oh well, can't wait for school tmr! Can't wait to see Visha too! Can't wait to crap with my classmates as well! Feels as though it has been soooooooooo long since we did that with all the countless work erupting above our heads! HAHAHAHAHA!

More eruption is gonna take place anyway!

HAHA! Ok, I should be studying for my Chem test right now! So, goodbye!

OH! OH! OH! I cut my fringe AGAIN today! HAHAHAHAHA! Its thicker now! I hope it turns out ok tmr though! HAHAHAHAHA! Gosh, bimbo!

Bye! :D

2010-08-09T21:34:00.003+08:00

SEE THE WAY THE FIRST FEW RED BALLOONS AND WHITE BALLOONS DIFFUSE TOGETHER! SO PRETTY! :DD

Studied with Visha today at Bukit Batok. But she seemed really distracted and wanted to clear things in her heart. So she talked and I listened. I hope she's ok now. I was a bit confused too and talking to her helped! And I'm really thankful for that! :D

A clear man is a happy man! :D I came up with it on my own! HAHAHAHA! Kinda lame, but oh well! HAHAHAHAHAHA!

So many things to do! Outings are all pushed! We'll wait till promos end girls! Oh plus Shawn, guy. HAHAHA!

Parade Commander for this year's NDP has stolen my heart! He has left me inspired! I LIKEEEEE! HAHAHAHAHAHA!

Oh well, goodnight!

This year is gonna end REALLY FAST! :D Oh fasting starts this Wed too! All the best to everybody! :D Hahahaha!

Byebye! :D

2010-08-08T14:32:00.006+08:00

SO BEAUTIFUL! :D I LIKE!! :D

Anyways, no mood for anything today :( Tmr's National Day! How old's Singapore again?! HAHAHAHAHA! Bio tuition in the morning went well! I like my tuition teacher! Mummy wants to go watch a movie. Dunno if we are going. I dunno if we're still going for NDP at Taman Jurong as well. No confirm replies yet :( Hahahaha!

So many 'DUNNO's! I needa stop leading a confused life! :D

Update soon! Goodbye! :D

2010-08-07T11:17:00.004+08:00

Uploading pics in facebook is really so slow! I can sleep and wake up AND IT'LL STILL BE UPLOADING!! -.-

I think I hear my dad singing in the toilet -.- see y i'm weird. My family's weird too -.- HAHAHAHAHAHA!

Oh well, I've got tuition tdy :( Just started them this week :( I HATE going for tuitions! But my mum says I need them after my MYE results! -.- I'M SO SAD!! :((((((( Ok wadeva, tht was rly melodrama!

OH! OH! OH! Yesterday my family and I went out for dinner. I swear I WAS SO TIRED THAT I ALMOST FELL ASLEEP IN E RESTAURANT ITSELF! HAHAHAHAHAHA! Ok and so my cousin told me that there's gonna be a national day parade at taman jurong. I miss being around that place! HAHA! Usually my school and his school performs/marches there every national day! I wanna go back there this sunday which is like tmr to watch my juniors and the teachers if possible! My cousin is the parade commander some more! So proud of him! Hahahaha! But THE GANG ain't replying to my msgs. ASSHOLES! So I gotta wait. So sad :( Always make this poor soul wait :( HAHAHAHA!

Oh and yesterday was National Day celebrations in school! IT WAS CRAZY! Never seen super higness even in JSS! HAHAHA! But I was rly too tired to join in the sing along session. The J1s weren't that enthu at all! J2s were rly crazy! Was nice to see! The rugby guys were really crazy! I like the way they are bonded so close tgt. Love that about sport CCAs! :D Hahaha. Then there was this balloon thingy thingy. The J1s had to be dressed in red while the J2s in white. Then we were ALL given balloons according to the colour we were asked to where. Then like how in JSS we took a whole school photo forming the letter J S S, here we formed the Singapore flag and released the balloons on a count of 3 and the teachers were standing upstairs taking pics I think. Was so cool! WAS SO BEAUTIFUL ALL THE BALLOONS! Red and white!! Hahahahaha! That was my favourite part of the whole celebrations! Lessons were really slacky. PW was spent on taking pics and my teacher didn't even come into class for GP so we were taking more pics! Then the girls were like plating our hairs and the guys were watching a dance video! Hahahaha! Then was e celebrations and more PW up till 4pm! But I swear, yesterday, we had the most productive meeting! I talked for almost the whole 2 hrs! Pity my group mates but I'm so proud of them! Hahahaha!

So anyways, long weekend ahead but really busy too! I gotta complete my portion of the WR, edit my group mates portion of the WR, study for chem test, study for bio test, study for maths test, finish planning revision timetable and REALLY STUDY! I wanna go meet e gang as well! I think they r planning a picnic! YAY! YAY! YAY! But rly, I need the time to catch up w work too! I dunno how at all. Gotta think of smth fast! Haiz :(

I'll get through :)

See ya folks!

I'm tired of such things already. I know, I know better. So byebye :)

2010-08-06T00:02:00.003+08:00

Shawn is such a darl. He is helping me edit the last para of my EOM! :D Hahahaha! The final submission is tmr! So happy! I can't wait to get my ass down on WR! Needs WAAAAAAAAAY too much editing despite the first draft being handed up already. Pretty much, embarassing. But nvm. Oh PW day went well! Didn't expect so much crowd actually! Hahahaha! And ppl ACTUALLY liked our idea! So thankful! And our surveys finished faster than expected! Hahahaha! But Mr Lum said that our grp is placed 4th position :( sad :( we were actually 3rd it seemed but were ties with another group. Then Mr Sas and the rest felt that the other group was better than us and poof we went down to 4th! :( so sad :( but for last minute work, 4th out of the 20 groups present there, is really not bad! :) Way to go people!

Anyways, in e morn t come is SUPPOSED t be National day celebs. But we have lessons after tht too up till 4pm! Gosh! And its PW!! :S Nvm, atleast we can continue with our WRs :D I can't wait to get this piece of shit over and done with! :) Hahaha!

Update soon then, goodnight! :D

Its my fault that that hole remains.

2010-08-02T23:18:00.004+08:00

Me: Mangs, I wish u were right here, beside me :(
Mangs: I am Naz, in your heart :)

:)

2010-08-02T23:10:00.000+08:00

OMG! OMG! OMG! OMG! OMG! ECONS TRIP IS CONFIRMED!! WE'RE GOING GERMANY FROM THE 21ST TO 30TH NOV!! :D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D OMG! OMG! OMG! OMG! I CAN'T CONTAIN MY EXCITEMENT AT ALL!! OMG! OMG! OMG! OMG!OMG!OMG!OMG!OMG!OMG!OMG!OMG!OMG!OMG!OMG!OMG!OMG!OMG!OMG!OMG!OMG!OMG!OMG!OMG!OMG!OMG!OMG!OMG!OMG!OMG!OMG!OMG!OMG!OMG!OMG!OMG!OMG!OMG!OMG!OMG!OMG!OMG!OMG!OMG!OMG!OMG!OMG!OMG!OMG!OMG!OMG!OMG!OMG!OMG!OMG!OMG!OMG!OMG!OMG!OMG!OMG!OMG!OMG!OMG!OMG!OMG!OMG!OMG!OMG!OMG!OMG!OMG!OMG!OMG!OMG!OMG!OMG!OMG!OMG!OMG!OMG!OMG!OMG!OMG!OMG!OMG!OMG!OMG!OMG!OMG!OMG!OMG!OMG!

Ok but the point is I NEED TO PASS ECONS H2 TO BE ABLE TO GO! Gosh!! 2 books, 4 packs of Micro Econs! Come on Naz, u can do this, I hope!

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA! :D

I wonder how feelings between even strangers happen.

2010-08-01T23:01:00.005+08:00

Life feels slightly monotone now. It is stressful too, like really. To the extend that sometimes I just feel like pulling all my hair and screaming. But then again my hair's too nice and I cannot afford to do that! Hahahahaha! Bimbo. Oh well, all these just till promos are over. Its not gonna be easy, but I gotta make it through. I really cannot afford to retain. I think the confidence people around me have in me is decreasing too and I wanna get that back up again. Like how it was when I was in Sec 2. I wanna be like how I was in Sec 2 again! Like an all rounder, or was it just luck or may be just more confident of myself and everything I do.

Anyways, I think I need some sleep. School tomorrow and for the first time I ain't as excited as I used to be. I miss my buddies, really really miss them :( like ALOT :( I miss JSS too :( I miss those grey uniforms too :( I miss the oldness in that place :( I miss being in Qin house too! Hahahahahaha! Ok, I shall shut up! I think I'm really weird! Hahahahahaha!

Oh well, goodbye :)

2010-08-01T02:07:00.007+08:00

HELLO :)

Am in the midst of EOM, almost done actually. Final submission on Monday before the actual submission which is on the 6th I think! Not sure if it got extended! I pray it does!

Anyways, the coming Wed is PW day. My group is doing quite a number of things. Hope it would be successful. I am not expecting so much crowd though. Like I mean, WHO WOULD EVER BE INTERESTED! Hahahaha! Anyways, got ALOT of homework this weekend too! Not forgetting the 101 tests coming up! Gosh! And I've got only a day left! Parent-teacher-meet session tdy - more like yest - was ok. Nothing much, except, results really sucked big time. But somehow, it didn't hit me as hard as it did during the prelims last year :/ Gosh! Has my heart turned numb to all sorts of feelings?! Maybe it has, coz I hardly feel anything in it nowadays. Wonder why? But oh well. I guess a hole created, is a hole created after all. Somehow, it refuses to go. I dunno why. Gosh! Kay now my post is turning into an emo one!!

Moving on, I miss MY GANG! We're all so busy that we don't even have time to call each other! I hope we can meet up on a day when ALL OF US WILL BE PRESENT! I miss Shawn, hardly get to see him! And I hope the girls are doing ok too! Mangsy and Anita are SO stress-prone! Hahaha! Anyways, I can't wait for Aadiperukku when I get to see u guys in my sch! Like how cool is that! :DDDDD But first! let me just aim to get promoted first! :D With my results like that, I dun think that is even possible :S And I wanna go to that Econs trip at the end of the year! But the criteria is a pass for Econs! Gosh! Like that is ever possible! *Screams and pulls hair* Nah, I'll think of something :) As usual :) Haha.

So anyways, saw something on Friday and you've rendered me confused. Its back to square 1, till I realised the same cycle keeps happening and I got really pissed with myself. Let me repeat it again, "SCREW PEOPLE LIKE YOU!" :) Thank you :) I do not wish to elaborate, coz this is a blog for goodness sake. But I do need some space to vent some anger, so ya :)

That's about it. Goodbye :) Back to EOM-ing :D I think I'm getting used to this cycle oredi :S

And my mum says I talk like a train. Do I, really? :S

And b4 I forget, its 1st August oredi! Dear god, happy making time pass really fast :)

I feel like dancing all day.

2010-07-28T21:58:00.006+08:00

Today was AWESOME! :D The tug of war girls came in 2nd! I wanted e 1st place though :( But the Owens girls were like so damn strong that most of the Polo girls fell down the moment they had the rope. Hahahaha! So.... I guess... size does matter for this game after all! Gosh! Hahahaha! At the start of the prelim rounds, we were against Nobel. They were really strong too! But we beat them with a score of 2-1! Muahahahaha! Then we were against Owens at the finals. And if we won tht round, we wld've been the 1st! But haiz, since we didn't, we were against Keller to determine the 2nd & 3rd positions. And I definitely didn't want the 3rd! So I went around telling everyone, if no 1st place, we'll grab e 2nd place instead! And that's exactly what we did! So happy! So proud of my team and so proud of myself! Today taught me a few things. If I want something, I can definitely get it. What an achievement! I wanna train for something else next year! We'll see how that goes, but right now, I gotta continue with PW! WR due tmr! Gosh! And I still have a super sucky Bio tutorial to complete :( And my arm muscles are aching like so damn bad! Oh and I forgot to include, Polo was 2nd overall! And Nobel were the overall champions! Byron had really good runners! And Owens were really strong! I wonder how we even became 2nd! HAHAHAHAHAHA! Oops! but oh well, today was fun! YAY! :D And a GREEN day ain't that bad after all! :D Hahahaha!

Oh well, goodbye! :D

2010-07-27T23:04:00.004+08:00

Tomorrow is sports carnival!

Its gonna be a day filled with loads and loads of GREEN! :D

Ain't a colour tht I like, but oh well! Go POLO! Can't wait!

I'll be wearing e GREEN pionero imperio wristband given during orientation! Then GREEN socks, GREEN rubber band, GREEN ribbon for the whole class and if possible, GREEN hairspray for the WHOLE HOUSE as well! MUAHAHAHAHAHA! I really can't wait! Plus its gonna be really colourful! All the colours from a rainbow, excluding Violet that is! HAHAHAHAHA!

Update soon! See ya!

2010-07-23T20:37:00.004+08:00

Today, my school had an Inter CCA relay. So cool right! I think it was only amongst the sports CCAs. Duh rite. Imagine ppl frm TLS taking part! HAHAHAHA! Ok, kidding. But anyway, Pooja, Visha and I went to go take a look :) After which Pooja and I had a LOOOOOOONG talk about it :)

.......One day, we'll see :)

"Do not underestimate your dreams for as while we live, we dream"
-Posted by some senior(I think) in PJC weave your dreams page. I like this line though :)

Anyways, there's an Inter house carnival next Wed! My classmates and I are taking part in TUG OF WAR! :D Can't wait for it but am also kinda scared :( What if I am not as strong as I think?! HAHAHAHA! Hey, I can lift a 25kg weight in e gym, mind you! :D But oh well, we'll see! I got all excited when I heard there was such a comp! :D Hahahaha! Pooja's taking part in relay. Its gonna be so colourful! I should bring my camera! :D Hahaha!

Oh and night study in school has begun! So happy! :D I can stay in school longer now! :D I really cannot study at home. My bed is so influential :D HAHAHAHA! So anyways, the sessions have been productive, so happy :) This weekend is gonna be hectic! Jessie and I have a CIP tmr at 11pm till e next morn at 4am. PW grp meet e following morning at 11am! Thank god that is only at JP. And my sis wanna go watch movie tmr -.- Gosh! There's so little time with so many things to do!

Oh and Ms Foo wants my group to take part in PW day which is on e 4th Aug! I'm kinda excited! But its gonna be a hell lot of work too! O.o So I'm in a dliemma! Haiz, we'll see how for that. Right now, I needa get thru this week of hell! I've LOADS to do! PW's becoming a headache! Trust me, it is not easy working in a group. I dun mean my group members suck. They may really be one of the best. But we can def do better! Jiayou everybody! This 2 years is gonna be a real though one! But its just 2 years of the 60+ years we live! So GO! :D Imagine the gun shot for a relay and you are running to the finish line! HAHA! Ok, lame analogy, but wadeva.

Goodbye for now!

July is almost coming to an end! O.o

2010-07-22T04:47:00.004+08:00

I've gotten the momentum! Now I needa GO! Cannot screw up promos! It is equal to screwing up my life! 2 more months! Feels like 'O' level again! Wait till next year comes man! Haha! Its 4+ am now and guess wad am I doing? PW! Cool or wad?! HAHA! Few more hours till sch comes! Shit, there's chem lect tdy -.-

Oh and LC yesterday was manageable! Paper left and Tamil would be out of my life for good! MUAHAHAHAHAHA! :D

Goodbye :)

2010-07-18T23:05:00.005+08:00

HELLO! :D Today was really productive at JP Starbucks with Jessie! :D So happy I managed to get most of my plans done! YAY! :D Should do this more often! Hehe! :D

And I'm in a dilemma, if we do get chosen to dance for national day, should I? Like with promos just 2 months away and results sucking big time! I can't afford to retain u noe. I'd rather go jump down from a building! HAHAHAHA! Ok, tht was really drama!

And I wanna be an OGL next year! :D But results matter too :( And there's SYF next yr as well! :D And so is Aadiperukku! Oh my! O.o

And I was wrong. We do not have that LOOOOOOOONG way to go. This 2 years is gonna pass by really fast! Maybe even faster than the speed of light! How cool! :D Ok, wadeva. Haha.

Anyways, sch tmr! :D I anticipate Mondays coz its tie day! :D Plus I'm gonna cut my hair tmr too! So another reason to anticipate tmr! YAY! :D

And Btw, tmr's e start of e 2nd last week of July! And I just recalled school starting! See what I mean. Oh well, I'll get through :)

Goodbye :)

2010-07-16T21:35:00.003+08:00

Kinda heartbroken :(

I dun blame Mangs for what she said, but I am hurt. And I think she knows too. But I'm glad she told me though, if not I wld never have known how she felt. But still, the 'no connection' part, rly pricks the heart. I'm sry, I ain't smart enough to enter JJ. But my only regret up till now ever since I got into PJ, was the way we lost our touch. I can feel it too, it ain't just you and I wanna revive that back! We'll work something out! :) Promise :)

There's some China programme tmr -.- Followed by CIP -.- But my grp consists of all e ppl I like! So I am happy! YAY! :D HAHAHA! Its a LOOOOONG day tmr! Wish me luck. This semester is, as I expected, not gonna be an easy one! I need all the strength! Thank you everyone, who had been giving me those constantly :) But as I said, it also is a better semester! And I like! :) But anyways, gotta gear up! MYEs were not wad I expected at all! I've got LOTS to do!

Speaking of which, I still have econs to complete! -.- HAHA!

Bye :)

2010-07-15T19:14:00.004+08:00

Too tired,
Too hurt ,
Too disappointed and
Too angry

I abhor SELFISH people right to the core. Let me repeat that. I ABHOR SELFISH PEOPLE RIGHT TO THE CORE!

Ok, wadeva.

That helped in a way :D I dun feel so emo now! HAHAHAHA! Am I weird or wad? Oh well! Anyways, I've learnt too much to let this be a setback. So, I dun really bother much. Just dun come to me when you need help anymore :) Thank you very much :)

P.S. I'm still pissed and I ain't nice when I'm pissed. Trust me.

2010-07-12T21:18:00.005+08:00

Hello :)
Results are out and it is REALLY sucky.
Greatly disappointed with Maths bcoz I expected ALOT for it :( Plus it is my fav subject. How discriminating.
Econs was sucky BIG TIME. I got a shock out of my life when I saw the grades.
MT oral and paper was ok :) I do not have to speak in tamil anymore in my life! WHOOOOOOOO! Hahahaha.
And PW's progressing well :)
I still have Chem paper and H1 Bio paper left to get back. Really worried for both!
Wish me luck.
But somehow I just have this feeling tht MYE is super screwed up which is totally not fair to me especially when I put in alot of effort :(
But nvm, it isn't over yet! MUAHAHAHAHA! We still got a LOOOOONG way to go! No point feeling heart broken now. Almost cried when Ms Chang talked to us during Econs tdy! And then suddenly 'O' level days flashed back! Really hard times :( But I made it through though I didn't do exceptionally well. But the point of it all was that faithful day when I told Ms Ong that I didn't think I would be able to make it but I did in the end :) Those times are super unforgtten! Haha! But now 'A' level is a whole new ball game! And we gotta stay motivated no matter what the fall! So, yea. That's about it, I think. HAHA! Really tired tdy :(
Will update in detail soon.

I wanna go cut my hair. Its so freaking LONG! :D

P.S. The world is filled with selfish people and their selfish needs :)

I'm random.

HAHA. Goodbye! :D

2010-07-07T21:19:00.003+08:00

Pooja MADE me this today! So nice right! I LIKE IT TOOOO! :D :D :D Am so touched! :D So am gonna be wearing it tmr! :D HAHAHAHAHAHA! MT Oral this Friday! I CAN wait and CAN'T wait at the same time! :S Wish me luck! :) Plus lessons begin tmr! So i think we'll be getting results tmr as well! And econs had to be e first few periods! :S:S:S:S:S screwed screwed screwed and more screwed! Oh well, lets just see what happens! :D

Today was fun! We had 1 and 1/2 hrs break after post exam progamme in the morning! And my classmates played OLD MAID in the midst of that! HAHAHAHAHAHAHA! So fun! I LOVE my classmates! They rock! This semester is gonna be a rocking good one! :D Not forgetting the EXTRA SYSTEM OVERLOAD that is gonna happen MORE FREQUENTLY this semester! :D Well, that part isn't so rocking! Hahahaha! But oh well, we'll get through! :D

I can't wait for my PW OP as well! I'm oredi so excited to present! Plus also to get this crap over and done with! :D HAHAHAHA! Speaking of which, there's PW tmr! :( I end at 3pm tmr. Oh did I mention we've got new timetables? Basically there isn't much of a diff for me. They just minus-ed 1hr from Mon and added it to Thurs -.- Oh well. School tmr! YAY!

Goodbyeeeeeeeeeeee! :D

2010-07-06T00:16:00.004+08:00

Heyho! Class outing today at Marina Barrage! Made my day today! So happy! :D Hahahaha! We're planning on taking more pics tmr bcoz post exam activities are such a bore n we gotta waste our time till 3pm tmr, 4.30 e day after n I haven't checked for Thurs! HAHA! Poor J2s, they are still in the midst of their exams :( HAHAHA! It'll be our turn next yr anyway! HAHA! Shikin n I have oredi planned for prom! HAHAHAHA! This shows how EXCITED we are to LEAVE the school! HAHAHAHAHAHA!

Ok, so anyway, gtg! school tmr! Can't wait to see EVERYONE again! :D Its gonna be fun! Oh, and GP paper results are only on Wed! -.- Such shit, wait for ANOTHER day! HAHA! Oh well, I can't wait for lessons to begin!

Goodbye! :D

2010-07-03T23:07:00.008+08:00

I wonder how does Love happen. By Chance? By destiny? I dunno.
But no relationships are perfect, but they sure are complicated! And I dun just mean BGRs for your infor :)

Its just a thought. Let's move on :)

So met up tdy with Anj and the gang! Not a very productive one I would say bcoz Mangs and Anj had to leave early :( And we met up kinda late anyway which equals to not being able to spend much time tgt :(

Anyways, she says she'll be coming back again in December! Can't wait! :) Atleast this time we can go see Mdm Priya and Mrs Aidil as well! :D Hahaha. That's when the REAL drama begins! MUAHAHAHAHAHA! Miss that! :(

So anyways, am really tired tdy! *yawns* Am watching 90210 online now :D Haha.

Catch up soon! :D

2010-07-03T01:11:00.008+08:00

As usual, plan always gets messed up. HAHAHAHA! So today, oh oops, its 'yesterday' oredi. Pooja n i met up for supposed ecllipse. But bcoz i turned up rly late we just chilled out at orchard instead. HAHAHAHA! Shopping and eating :) Saw alot of maxis tooo! OMG! So beautiful! I wanna get tht for prom next yr! :D:D:D:D:D But I may change my mind! HAHA!

So anyway, later on in the day, meeting ANJ and e rest of e gang for dinner at JP! WOOOOOOO! we have never gone out for lunch/dinner as a WHOLE gang b4! HAHAHAHA!

Oh and as planned Sun I'm gonna sleep and rly SLACK! :D HAHAHA! And oh! nice shows on tv next week too! X-men, the skith sense! YEA! Bring it on! Ok, wadeva.

And Monday is picnic with S12! WOOOOOOO! Shikin and I wanna fly kite at Marina Barrage! I have no idea how to fly one! HAHAHAHAHA! But I'll learn! :D Thk god, it has nothing to do with balls! Bcoz, apparently, I dun have any ball sense -.-

HAHAHAHAHA!! Which is kinda true anyway! HAHA!

OH! OH! OH! I cooked a proper dish for the v first time in my life yesterday! Ofcoz with the help of my mum and sis, i can never do w/o them! HAHAHAHAHA! And yea it turned out well! WOOTS! :D Gonna do it again on Mon and let e whole of S12 taste it! MUAHAHAHAHA! Shit, wait, hopefully my sis helps me too. You noe my sis is younger than me and it is embarassing when she says I'm childish or when she helps me with things such as cooking bcoz HELLO its supposed to be e other way around! HAHAHAHA! Anyways, hope S12 doesn't die of my cooking! HAHAHAHAHA!

Ok, lame.

I can't sleep, shit wad do I do. HAHA!

2010-07-01T20:47:00.008+08:00

I didn't think I was ever gonna see you again. I wanna say many things but nothing comes out right.

But anyways, I wonder if you know that things are really very obvious and that I ain't that dumb. With that, i wonder why you did some of the things you did when you oredi -you know- But I too wonder why I did some of the things I did. Its kinda weird. And I do not like writing things up on a blog and letting the whole world know. I'd prefer to be more direct with things. But that is like duh, impossible, I do not have to state the obvious. Sometimes I wonder why do I think so much about somethings that never meant to happen. But sometimes I just can't help but ask why. I do not like emoing over issues such as this. And I do not blame you over it. Bcoz it is my fault too, for crossing the line. I wonder if what I said above even made any sense. HAHA! But oh well, right now, the heart is kinda empty and it feels nothing. Maybe it'll take some time before it is able to feel something again. Haha. So anyways, I'm choosing to leave all these behind and just move on. As it is that you have a life of your own now as well :) So, all the best in anything and everything hereafter! :)

Apart from that, Mid Year is finally over! WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO! So happy! I'm like freaking tired both mentally and physically! * faints* Ok, wadeva. So we're on 4 days holiday and its back to sch on the 6th with post exam activities, one of which includes going thru of GP paper (PUM PUM PUM)! I'm freaked out to the core! All the best to me! OH! And 'A' level MT oral exam timetable is out and I'm the LAST person on the FIRST day (0907)! It has its pros and cons. I was nvr the last person for oral b4, so sad :( And I've forgotten how to speak in tamil! OH MY GOD! HAHAHAHAHAHA! I hope I dun screw up though! I want my A and get this piece of shit over and done with, with my life! MUAHAHAHAHAHA! Man, I felt so bad for making it sound so bad, but hey, its MT, i dun care! :D

Oh and Aadiperukku's postponed to next yr March which clashes with JJ's vanavil! :( * sob sob* so the only thing to look forward to this semester: PROMOS *bangs head against wall*

Ok, wadeva, i need sleep, goodnight! :) Ecllipse with Pooja tmr! A semi-messed up plan with the gang + ANJELICA on Sat! :D And another gathering with another gang on Monday which I dun even know if its confirmed or not yet! HAHA! I'm gonna sleep 24/7 on Sunday! :D

Hahahaha! Bye! :D

2010-06-27T10:57:00.008+08:00

Some people are just plain suckers! >.< So pissed.

Anyways,

Bio's over! :) No paper on Monday. Tuesday's Econs and that too in the afternoon! >.<
Wednesday's MT and Maths. And OMG, MT is like 3 hrs long! We are all so scared we would sleep during the paper! HAHAHA! Screw the exam branch. But oh well. Oh and Thursday, the LAST DAY OF EXAM! :D Its Chem paper. I'm scared for my H2s. All the best to me! Can't wait for lessons to start! We all miss lessons, believe it or not! Haha!

2010-06-24T09:41:00.005+08:00

Exams begin tmr! Its H1 Bio day! And I'm excited and not excited at the same time! WEIRD MUCH! HAHA! Wish me luck!

And as hols end, it aint just the exams but a new school term is about to begin as well! This coming term is gonna be EGG-CITING! I can feel it! :D And I can't wait!! :D

2010-06-16T00:05:00.004+08:00

And here's 10S12! Finally have a pic with them! Though it ain't the whole class. About 10 of them missing! HAHA!

So today was BBQ with S12 at Dengyang's condo! I look a bit over dressed thanks to NURASHIKIN! Haha. Oh but nonetheless, had fun! Pictures are up in facebook! Well, its uploading right now :) Am really tired!

Tmr's a BIG day! Am kinda nervous! Dear God, help me :) Apart from that, I really need to get on with work! Have been held up quite alot this week because of all these going outs and wad not! And this week is gonna be hell! Oh my! :(

Anyways, that's about it! :) Update pretty soon :)

And oh! Its 12+ oredi! So that means, HAPPY BIRTHDAY SHIKIN! She's 2 days younger than me! Cool or wad! HAHAHAHA!

Goodbye! :)

2010-06-14T16:37:00.023+08:00

Heyhey! Its my Birthday today! WOOOOOOOOOOOOOO! My blog just turned one year old too! HAHAHA! Anyways, check out Sirin's blog! her 14/06 blog post rocks! COZ IT IS ABOUT ME! WHOOOOOOOOOOOOOO! Hahahahaha!!

Ok, wadeva.

So it was just last year when we all thought being 16 was the sex! And here comes 17 and as we grow older, the legal 18, followed by the all-rights-reserved 21 and so on. Time passes by really fast! And before we know it we would be adults oredi! How fast is that! Haha.

The World is a demanding one. And we realise that as we grow older :) 17 years down the road, alot of ups and downs and alot of learnings along the way :) I'm thankful for each and every experience and I'm thankful to each and every individual who made my life so bright and colourful :) Thank you, all of you :) And you guys ROCK big time! :)

HOPEFULLY, if there is more years to come, I am anticipating for those! :)

When the going gets though, the tough gets going! This ain't new, but I like this saying :)

And with that, some pics of the people and the times I miss the most :)

Meet my beloved 4/5! :D

The AWESOME-EST GUY EVER! Shawn Lim JunTa! :) Rocks my LIFE BIG TIME! :)

My FAV GIRLS! They ROCK my LIFE BIG TIME TOO! :) From the left: Anita, Mangala and Durga! :)

My FIRST EVER Peformance! The man on the most right, is my instructor and he has taught us ALOT! :) He Rocks! :)

And my LAST Dance :(

My Dancers :)

One of those CRAZY moments at EL, when we just stepped into the commitee :) This was when we were Sec 3 :)

THE Trophy, which means ALOT to us Debaters! We worked really REALLY hard! :)

Presenting to you, JSS Debaters :) Oh but the pic is missing Durga! Haha! This was at the Finals! Oh and there's Amanda, on the left holding the 'OPPOSITION' sign, that's our coach and she ROCKS BIG TIME! :) We may have lost the BIG PRESTIGIOUS CREST, but we're the best team that ever lived! MUAHAHAHAHA! :D

Some crazy Juniors! FARIDAH and ANJELICA (who is now in Aussie )': ) Miss this drama-ness at EL! :)

And Finally, Mrs Aidil :) The diva-est EL Teacher-in-charge ever! :) And also the one whom we can talk to and gossip about ANYTHING! :)

There we go. That's about it :) Ofcoz there's more but I either dun have their photos or its just too many! Hahaha! But nonetheless, these people rock! And I LOVE EACH AND EVERY ONE OF THEM! :)

Goodnight world! :)

2010-06-13T13:28:00.005+08:00

SUNFLOWER! Its Pretty right! :D

Ok, this'll be a proper post for yesterday's steamboat! HAHA!

So I went JB in the morning. Was back like at about 2 plus. Then went to cousin's place to borrow THE camera :D So as planned, we were supposed to meet Anita outside at JSS bus stop at 4.30pm. But thx to Lavanya, we only managed to meet her at abt 5+ -.- This girl will never change! So we went to Shenshiong to go get the necessary food for the steamboat. I was too stupid to shop for groceries. So I let Anita and Lavanya do that, and I just snap the photos! HAHAHA! After which they got mad at me and so i shut up n started choosing things. HAHA! So then we went to Anita's house. Shawn arrived shortly :) As for Mangala and Durga, they hadn't come yet. And it was getting really late. So I called them and Durga was like "Oh we just left JP - we're 3 bus stops away from JSS" Gotcha! I suspected something. MUAHAHAHA! So i decided to play along. Then I was like, okok, come fast! I miss u guys! Then I turned behind and told Anita that they were 3 bus stops away from JSS. She was like "ok" and then turned and gave Shawn that smile. I suspected something again! HAHA! I rock rite?! Ok, wadeva.

So Anita and Shawn went to go pick up Mangala and Durga from her bus stop and they ordered me not to come. So, that made things obvious again! HAHA! Then they came from the back door instead of the front. So i suspected smth again! HAHA! So anyway we carried on with the steamboat. Snapped alot of shots! Finally Durga brought her camera. Haha! And yea, was GREAT to just catch up. But somehow, because I am at PJ and the rest of them are at like JJ, there seems lesser things to talk about :( Like I dunno who is Joel, Mr A or Miss B u know :( And Mangsy kept wanting to throw me into the pond! -.- HAHA! I miss those times when we had alot to talk about, rather than those awkward silents that exist sometimes nowadays when I am alone with any one of them :( Or how they talk about people I dun even know and I've got nothing to say to anything coz I dunno anything :( But oh well, tell me more about the people in JJ then! :)

Anyways, moving on, so it was getting late and they needed to be out with the surprise right. Haha. So they began acting a bit weird. Like "Naz! Sit here!" or "Naz can u cook the sausages!" - Please, u dun wanna get me to cook anything! :D HAHA! And then as I suspected, Anita and Mangsy came out holding the cake! Haha! The cake was really delicious u noe! Mangsy refused to feed it to me. HAHA! But later, just stuffed it into my mouth -.- So anyway, after the continuous laughters they finally got me to cut the cake. Haha, poor them. I must've probably been the WORST friend on Earth! HAHA! So anyway, then it was present time! :D I like! :D And I am seriously the DUMBEST girl on Earth! Giovanna is a shoe brand. And when Mangsy gave me the plastic bag with 'GIOVANNA' written so big, i still could go, "OH! U GOT ME NEW SHOES?!" And obviously Mangala lied and said they got me smth else (I dun wanna say wad tht is, coz it is totally wrong! HAHA) And then I opened the box and went like "OH! IT IS REALLY A NEW SHOE!" HAHAHAHA! That cracked everyone up again! HAHA! I noe, I'm really dumb.

So yea after that, we ate up the cake (Shawn ate most of it as usual) and it was getting really late. So we left and Anita's dad sent us back home. SO NICE RIGHT! I know! :) Haha.

So anyways, thanks to all 5 of you for the surprise and the present! Really rocks! and I LOVE the shoes! Will be wearing it on the 15th! MUAHAHAHAHA! Haha. Most importantly, I LOVE ALL OF YOU VERY VERY VERY VERY MUCH! :) This is to the coming 5th year of friendship and still counting on! All the best at JJ and at Computer Engineering for Lavanya and I can't wait to see you guys when you all make it big in life! We must go back to JSS and see Mrs Aidil and Mdm Priya when that day arrives! HAHA!

That's about it. Life always seems so positive after seeing them :) And I am happy! :) We met up at the right point of time where I was feeling really pessimistic about things :( And I think everyone of them went home HAPPY. The smiles in each and everyone's faces is so heart warming to see :) I can't wait to see them again! Haha.

But now, I gotta hit the books :) Haha. Exams in approx 2 weeks time! :O

AND! Remember, tomorrow's my birthday! :D

Goodbye! :)

2010-06-13T00:55:00.004+08:00

We ROCK right! :D

This is ALL of us again after what seemed like ages! HAHA! GREAT to have seen all of them again! They've seriosuly grown! More mature, more sweeter, like Shawn, (either he is turning gay-er than he oredi is or he is really turning more gentlemanly! HAHA!), more stronger, or some practically, remain the same! HAHA!

Steamboat at Anita's place followed by celebrating my birthday! :) Oh and they got me new shoes for my birthday1 YIPEEEEEEEEEE! HAHA! They rock rite?! HAHA! The fun, stupidity, slowness and dumbness never dies when we're together :)

Love them! :)

Thx for making this 17th Birthday a great one! :) Haha.

Ok, am too tired! Proper update soon! Goodnight! :) Monday's the actual birthday! How cool! :) HAHA! Goodbye :)

2010-06-11T11:02:00.006+08:00

I like my new blogskin! :D

I'm sick :( and I NEED a LIFE :) Can't wait for tmr! Hope I can go though :( Dear flu, please go away :) Thank you :)

On a random note, I'm becoming an ADDICT to the shows on Channel 8 and Channel 5 now! MUAHAHAHAHAHA! :D

Ok, wadeva.

Goodbye :)

P.S. Thinking about the past is UGLY and HURTFUL. May THE school start fast. I MISS S12! :)

2010-06-09T08:48:00.002+08:00

Mind moving right + Heart moving left = Confused self

May the WORLD be a better place :)

Today's gonna be great :) And tomorrow's gonna be even better :)

2010-06-07T01:10:00.003+08:00

I feel VERY distracted today!
And that ain't good.
I gotta get on with revision!
I cannot make the same mistake as last year. I dun want to too.
I need to do well atleast.
Its only the first test, I know.
But I can't fail anyone, anymore.
More importantly, I cannot fail myself, again.
Sometimes, i just feel so STUPID.

Wadeva, 3 more days before I'll be seeing Mangsy and Durga for lunch followed by S12 girls for movie and I dunno, shopping? HAHA! Plans haven't been confirmed yet but I NEED a day out, just to feel crazy again :) And please do make school start again fast! Though I know there's exams once school reopens. But please, just let school start fast. Dun feel too excited for birthday anymore. But wadeva.

Goodnight :)

P.S. Every minute counts now. The clock is ticking. I HAVE to and I NEED to and I MUST get a move on.
P.S.S I HATE it when the WORLD is being so darn selfish!

2010-06-02T22:40:00.003+08:00

I'm kinda pissed at the moment and dun feel like talking. But at the same time, I dun wanna emo and hence feel like crapping. So, to end all contradictions,

I ROCK!

And that is it :)

Goodbye! :)

School tmr! YAY! :)

2010-06-02T00:53:00.004+08:00

When we anticipate the school holidays, they still end up being boring when they eventually come! The grass never was greener on the other side after all -.- Ok, lame. I've got exams starting from 25th June. And the first paper is H1. And that means BIO! :O I miss my 'O' Level Bio :( And 'O' level Chem! I never appreciated 'O' level Bio esp, when it was there, but now I miss it! If only I gave my heart into doing it. But oh well, its over. And this is like a second chance for me to repent. SO AM GRABBING IT! :D MUAHAHAHAHA! And Durga called today! :D And she has planned somethin' this Sunday! WHOOOOOOOOOO! Hope all goes well though.

And Mangsy has turned into an emo child now :( Dude, cheer up, no matter what the reason. I dun believe it is just because of ur progress card! TALK TO ME U CRAZY GIRL! I MISS CRAPPING WITH U FROM E 4TH FLOOR TO THE 1ST B4 ASSEMBLY FOR GOODNESS SAKE! HAHAHA! U MAKE MY DAY EVERY SINGLE DAY EVEN WHEN I'M UBER DOWN THAT MORNING! I MISS WEARING THOSE GREY UNIFORMS WITH U :) I MISS PUTTING MAKE UP TOGETHER BEFORE EVERY DANCE PERFORMANCES :) I MISS THE WAY WE CHECK IF EACH OTHER HAVE WORN ALL OUR JEWELLERIES B4 LEAVING E CLASSROOM (w/o u i forgot to wear my bangles b4 Masquerade this yr! HAHAHA! But i ran up to get it eventually thx to Pooja :) haha) MANGSY PANGSY JANGSY, I MISS U AND LOVE U SO SO MUCH! :) I hope you see this though :) Haha.

Ok, its 1am, gotta get back to work! :) Goodnight to the rest of the world! :)

2010-05-30T23:41:00.012+08:00

Heyho! =D Check out my NEW SCHOOL BAG! (Right) Hehehehehehehehehehehehehe! Mummy brought me shopping for 2 whole days! Me soooooooooooo happy! WEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE! But I am not a spoilt kid OK! =D Hahahahaha! Outing with girls got cancelled :( AS USUAL! SO UNFAIR! God, me MUST meet them during the hols! Please make smth possible! May plans for 12th NOT BE RUINED! I LOVE YOU GOD! :) *Radio's playing my fav song AGAIN!* HAHAHAHA!

NEW BOOK I am reading currently! People say its VERY NICE. But it seems only ok to me. Its kinda draggy and boring at the start! :( My cousin finished this book in a few hours! :O SO I CAN TOO! Let me push a date for me to crane my neck and finish this book! May I not get the stiffness again! HAHAHA! *Recalls back the days when my neck got stiff last year* HAHA! Funny memories! :D

Ok, wadeva. Gotta go back to THE homeworks! There's Econs Lect tmr! Following which commitee meeting and then I'm planning to go cut my fringe! Should I or should I not?? Hmmmmm..... I'm in a dilemma! Where's DURGASHREE MURU when I need her the most?! EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEDIOTS!

Anyways, saw this incident when I was in the train!

*Train door opens and an Indian family walks in*

Boy, about the age of 10 or 11 rushes to the only available seat and sorta 'chops' that place. A lady from the opposite seat stands up to alight and the boy shouts at his mummy to sit. She was carrying a child about the age of 1 or 2 only. The father walks towards the boy and stands with the pram. Boy tells father to take his seat but father refuses and gives in to his child. However, boy stood up, forcefully sat the father down on the seat and boy sits on his daddy's lap. He then reaches out to the baby pram and makes sure it is carefully secured to the ground.

Both his parents looked very tired and worn out. They didn't appear that well-to-do to me, just like any average family. It seemed to me that the only source of energy they were getting that kept them going in this highly demanding life, is the son's enthu-ness.

SWEET or wad? :) I'm impressed! I dun think even I wld've done something like that despite being way older. *Feels guilty*

But my point of this whole thing is:

LOVE makes even the toughest of days, manageable :) HAHA!

*Toodles*

2010-05-23T19:16:00.004+08:00

Lets just move on :)

"In life, shit happens" SO TRUE! Muahahahahahaha!

College day yesterday was great! Excluding the part whereby it got super cold in e hall and I think i was practically e only going "SO COLD! SO COLD!" Haha! Plus, omg, there were some cock ups here and there, with the video, the mike, some of the emcess. Woah! I hope they didn't get scolded terribly again! Well, anyways, the whole thing was awesome! The Alumni came back as well because alot of them were receiving prizes :) And after the whole thing ended, there were this group of people just talking among themselves.

Person 1: From behind when I saw that AYR (?) jacket, I knew it was gonna be you! And OMG it is! How have you been man?!
Everybody else: Giggles and continues conversation

Somehow, it felt good listening to just that part of the conversation. Imagine us being in the same position in years to come once we graduate from PJC and us years to come when we all meet up together again as JSS seniors. How cool is that?! Maybe Mangala will be like "From behind when I saw that puff, I knew it was gonna be you!" HAHAHAHA! Saying this only brings tears to my eyes. But at the end of the day, there's just one thing: Enjoy every little thing and treasure everyone around you when you still can! I'm glad I did just that especially in the last year of my JSS life. Its a new life here in PJ, and as my Principle said during her speech for college day "Its good to have more new beginnings than endings".

Sometimes its weird how things suddenly just happen. But trust me, EVERYTHING really does happen for a reason :) The world is so big! There's just so much yet to see. And as Pooja and I talked about some time back, how can someone, at an age of say only 17 say that their life is screwed up?! Then what about the remaining part of their lifes? I dunno, but I guess at the end of the day, its just about how you see everything, your perceptions on things and basically, how you see every single stage of growing up because it is during this period of time that we learn alot! And as Justin said b4, we learn something new everyday! I still haven't forgotten that! HAHA! I miss those people, that 4/5 environment, that position as the President for Indian dance and the Debate Coordinator of ELDDS and I wld do ANYTHING to get back just a day as a 4/5 student, a Debate Coordinator and a President all over again! HAHA!

But hey, we ain't starring in the movie "17 again" HAHA! This is LIFE! And we gotta get a move on with things! So lets just throw away wadeva setbacks as they are just gonna be a hindrance to every other thing coming in you way, even happiness! I know in my sorrow e past few days there have been a never ending stream of people asking me if I was ok, I'm sry for not responding well then, but I really do appreciate the care and concern 10S12 gives me :) And ofcoz, not forgetting those who even called me immediately after reading my status! Haha, with so much love here, why bother to look on the other side?

Thanks so much to EVERYONE! I love you all and thanks for being a part of my life, which is still beautiful despite all the imperfections it holds currently! I believe things would become better and I would make just that happen :)

Absence makes the heart grow fonder and when the 12th comes, I'm gonna hug all you girls and even shawn so tightly! HAHA! (erm, maybe Shawn, not so tightly! HAHA!) Well, its the last week of school, and GP mid year is on Thurs! One last week to make everything right before the semester ends!

Wish me luck for my exams and my PW interview! :D Haha!

Goodbye :)

2010-05-21T19:23:00.001+08:00

Here we go again!

SCREW YOU and EVERYONE ELSE who are just like you!

2010-05-21T01:14:00.004+08:00

Its weird how similar things happen all over again. Sometimes I wonder what exactly does God want me to do. I really dun want and can't stand any more of such crap! But I ain't complaining. Bcoz I never have complained. So, i'll just move on, because that's the only solution that beams right at my face at the moment :) We'll wait, for time to tell :)

P.S. Econs tutorial yesterday was great! Coz I answered majority of the questions! :D MUAHAHAHAHAHAHA! I think the teacher likes me, she keeps calling me to answer them :P HAHA!

P.S.S. Its so weird how one can LOVE and HATE another they dun even know!

Goodbye! :) College Day tmr -.- There goes another Sat! -.-

2010-05-14T22:14:00.004+08:00

Heyhey! Wad a tiring week this has been! *Yawns!* :D

To start with Tuesday was rehearsel day. Actually we were supposed to end sch at 5 but our class was one of e few to go support the rugby match at CCAB so we were released at 2.45 :D But i cldn't go because i had rehearsel at UCC that very day and we were leaving school at 5pm -.- Sad. So anyways, rehearsel at UCC up till 10pm that day! Reached home at 10.30pm thanks to Visha's father who gave me a ride home! :D YAY! :)

Then on Wed morn, woke up at 5 am, went to sch, sang the national anthem, and went for dance practice. Actually my school was having its investiture on that day as well! And I cldn't even see my classmates getting their posts that day :( So sad :( So danced and danced and left sch at 11am to UCC. Most of us were oredi sleeping in the bus! HAHA! So once we approached UCC, we had lunch then went into our changing rooms and started preparing for our full dress rehearsel. We didn't have any make up on yet coz our teacher only came at 4pm to help us with those. So we were all sleeping b4 we were called to go down n perform. Haha. I just woke up when the teacher rushed in and told us that we were up next! HAHA! But anyway, e sleep was really a necessity coz i think i did well during e rehearsel! :D HAHA! So after that we went back to our changing rooms and were making a hell lot of noise instead of practising like e rest of e dances :P Haha, oh well! And so our teacher finally came and started with our make ups and hairdos! Oh! All of us did puffs for e concert! And i helped everyone make them! :D But after doing all 9 puffs, I was oredi so tired! HAHA! I should NEVER become a hairstylist in future! HAHA! So it was 7.30pm like finally and after a long wait, we were called! Half way down i realised i haven't worn e bangles! So i rushed back up and got them! We were back stage after that and were commenting on how pathetic e crowd was. Serously there were only 450 seats and the population of PJ is like a 1000+? Haiz so sad. And UCC stage was not very big at all! I think even RP stage was bigger! like WAY BIGGER! Omg I miss performing at RP during cultural night last year! :( HAHA! Anyways, performance was GREAT! Accept, I cld've been a bit more confident :( But i think i did well :) better than how i performed for Agni :D HAHA!

Anyways, pics wld be up in facebook soon! I've been uploading them for e past 3 hours! Facebook is sooooooooooooo sloooooooooow! God! Such shit! Wasted so much time on uploading! And I've still got loads of things to do! Haiz, maybe i should postpone the last song for some other time :D as well as shopping with the girls :( and anyway, i've got no mood to shop at the moment! Sry Durga! :( Haha.

Apart from those, today we got out posts for TLS. And I wanted the President post but got the Vice-President post instead. Kinda disappointing, but am kinda ok with it at the same time :) Janani's the new President, which is kinda expected. So yea. May everything go well and I think our commitee is filled with many potentials this year, so am kinda excited! :D I only hope I can manage everything! Both school work and and the CCA :) I dun wanna be screwing up my 'A's as well! :O Oh and I forgot, congrats to Mangs, for being e President of JJ's ICS! Am so proud of her and her small head! :D HAHA!

Mid Years are coming! GP paper in 2 weeks time! GP feels exactly like debate training and that scares me! Really :( Anyways, wish me luck! I cannot screw up mid years and I dun want to! :O

That's abt it! Am rly tired! :( Goodbye! :)

2010-05-09T08:21:00.001+08:00

Masquerade 2010

12th May, at NUS, University Cultural Centre, tickets selling at $12 each!

Text me if u're interested! :D

2010-05-06T18:13:00.004+08:00

Napha test this week and next. So far, cleared 2.4 :) And i'm just 2 mins away from my original stamina! Am so happy! My timing was 16.26. I want back my 14 for sure! But i'll improve, i know :) There's still one last chance next yr! As for this, after not running for a LOOOOONG time, plus putting on tons of weight :( and stamina deproving like crazy, i'm proud of my timing! :) But i think i cld've seriously chiong-ed e last round more! But oh well! Nvm :) I'm so proud of myself! Ate chocolates tdy after a LOOOOOOONG time too! :) YAY! :)

Shikin told me smth so depressing tdy :( I think she thought I was gonna be rly sad. But i wasn't! Muahahahahaha! But i am sad -.- But nvm :) I'm still ok :) I'M a WEIRDO! :D

Rehearsel yesterday went well :) I'm happy :) But we can do better, I'm sure of it :)

Another round of rehearsel tmr! This time, I'm gonna give my best!

Apart from that, Econs essay left to do! So, will update soon :) Maybe after next week when concert is all over! Funny, concert is on next wed, 12th May, ON A FREAKING SCHOOL DAY! And it all ends at 10pm! And Thursday's another school day :) weird much? Haha.

Bye! :)

2010-05-03T21:05:00.003+08:00

Somehow, it always boils down to me to make the massive decisions. "Its up to you. Its up to you." People say that repetitively. See how much a "YOU" can mean. YOU as a person, YOU as your mindset, YOU as your thoughts and thinkings.

Ok wadeva, lets not complicate things. Anyways, WE FINALLY FINISHED OUR DANCE TDY! Cool or wad?! WOOTS! Practice tmr but i only end lessons at 5 :( Wed is rehearsel day! And i feel so embarrased dancing in front of modern dancers. But lets just see wad happens! :) And i think right now is all e competition periods, so ALL THE BEST EVERYONE! :)

Goodbye :)

2010-05-02T00:09:00.004+08:00

I hate it when there are so many questions in my head. I'm not a emo person u noe! I NEVER WAS! OH GOD! This week has been terrible! Especially Friday! Do u noe how many of my classmates came and ask me if I was ok! That shows how obvious my BLANK-ness was! I was seriously BLANK! Like i wld be paying attention during chem lesson. Then when Ms Ng is attending to someone personally, I'll be just staring at the white wall, my mind, as blank as it is -.- And then Pooja had to call my name a few times before I responded. And during Bio, my teacher had to come infront of me, snap her fingers rite in front of my face and ask if I was stoning. I shook my head and she asked me a question. Thank god, I KNEW THE ANSWER! Haha. But hey, that's not the point. The point is, wad's up with me? Uh! This sucks! I hate to be like that! I dun like PMS-ing! And I hate to be quiet! Bcoz I'm not such a person! OH GOODNESS!

How can someone possibly not know why they're pissed or why they're sad?! DUMB! DUMB! DUMB!

Wadeva, its 12am, I'm going to sleep. Just finished Bio. Maths, Chem and Econs to go tmr! Practice on Monday, School starting on Tues, Rehearsels on Wed and Fri and probably PW interview on Thursday if all goes well. I love my PW groupmates! They rock! :) Aren't I lucky? To have great teammates and great classmates! Not forgetting, great friends! The ones here at PJ and NEVER forgetting those who are in JJ :) My life would SO SUCK W/O THEM! :)

OH! Small gathering at cousin's place today was great :) But it sucks when they keep talking about JCs/ Polys/Subject combis/Universities :( Pls, we're tgt, why not talk about something less stressful? But this shows me something as well. SEE HOW DEMANDING THE WORLD IS!

Oh well. Goodnight. Am gonna sleep :)

2010-05-01T09:32:00.003+08:00

Winner's creed:

We are what we have always been doing.

UCC performance is on the 12th May! Can't wait to see the stage at NUS! Practice has been going OK. But it needs more! More zest, more enthu and more.... me? Yeaaaa... :) No more blank days or blank moments! Get over it! The answer is right infront of me! Going to cousin's place later on. But am damn tired! Slept for 12hours and am still so tired! Muscle cramp! Damn! Shldn't have been too ambitious in the gym -.- Oh guess what, my left arm is stronger than my right! O.o WEIRD! But my shoulders are getting broader and my arm muscles are getting bigger! YAY! YAY! YAY! :) School on Monday for practice! HAHA! Cool or wad?! HAHA!

That's about it. Goodbye :)

P.S. Where's the passion?!

2010-04-29T19:30:00.002+08:00

NURASHIKIN MADE MY DAY TDY! :)

2010-04-25T08:54:00.002+08:00

I BELIEVE :)

2010-04-24T22:32:00.003+08:00

It sucks to ask the same question over and over again. When I thought I finally solved it, it comes back haunting again! >.< What could suck more?! I hate it when that happens. But somehow, I don't feel all down because somehow I get to explore things all over again. We'll see what is in store :)

And now, back to homeworks :)

P.S. I should have done English Lit as my H1! It seems damn fun! J2s get to go UK and stage a play during assembly! How cool?! The tests are OPEN BOOK! :D:D:D:D Only down side is that we need to write poetries :( And I ain't creative AT ALL! :( I wish I was GOOD ENOUGH to be an Arts student and not just LOOK like an Arts atudent :( Haha. But oh well!

Goodbye! :)

2010-04-23T20:41:00.002+08:00

I've got 2+ days left!
I need to finish GPP by Monday!
Econs test on Mon.
GP Test on Tues and
Bio test on Wed.
I'm e only one in my class with a schedule like tht. Haiz. Dun quite like my combi so much anymore -.- Haha. Oh plus PW grp meet tmr and dance prac tmr. *Faints* But more imptly, i cnt fail Econs test! OH GOD! OH GOD!

P.S. Need to pick myself up! Though questions keep haunting me.

2010-04-21T21:42:00.003+08:00

Heyhey! Am too tired today. School was like... Dance... lessons... Chem test and more dance! only reached home at 8 -.- Haha. I did not go to school yesterday :P 20/04/10 marks the first day of me being absent in PJC! Hahaha! Like wadeva. Today was great! I FINALLY WENT TO SCH EARLY! I didn't have to run into the sch gate and pass the concourse or get caught at the concourse because the National Anthem had oredi started -.- or worst off, get caught outside the gates! MUAHAHAHAHAHA!!!! I was booked only ONCE this Term! But have ran into school like a million times oredi! HAHAHAHA! Ok wadeva, its not something I should be announcing so proudly. Oh well, there's always a first time to everything! :)

So anyway, today was International Friendship Day. So we so called celebrated it in school. The J1s danced and the J2s danced/played games. Somehow I think its my school's tradition to dance to every occasion?! HAHAHA! So anyway, today was fun! Especially when we all gathered at the front of the hall and shaked to the bollywood song! HAHAHA! After which we hip hopped to some K-pop music! Today, taught me a few things :) And today opened my eyes to some things :) Lessons spoilt the day after that! MUAHAHAHAHA! Nah, I was just kidding!

Haha, ok so now wish me luck as I fight through my tiredness to keep myself awake to complete all THE homeworks! :) Tmr's PE and I think we're gonna run with dumbells! Cool or wad? :)

GOODBYE!!!!!!!! :D

2010-04-18T10:09:00.005+08:00

I slept at 4am yesterday! But woke up at 8! -.- Screw it! I can't seem to fall asleep on weekends but do alot of those on weekdays! Haha.

Anyways, the weekend is almost over, Maths tutorials to go and Chem test to study for!

And the picture above is taken by me during GP tutorial! Muahahahaha! I like it! And with that, lets start another week with a more POSITIVE mindset! I gotta work ALOT HARDER! And it ain't just about academics this time but for EVERYTHING! Work towards your goal, I'm working towards what I want (As my senior said, do what you want and F the rest!) :) And as said before, I'm gonna bust those asses! Don't look down on me, because I can definitely prove you otherwise :) I will and I would! :) Don't forget, karma's a bitch! Laugh at me all you want today, but keep this in mind, tomorrow it'll be my turn! :) The race is still on! May the best man win! HAH!

Goodbye! :)

2010-04-16T22:08:00.003+08:00

Heylo! :)

Another week, Another Friday, Another weekend and Another weekday. Weird much?

Moods have been so up and down this week. But being with the crazy bunch makes my day :) Found out ALOT of "truths" this week. Mostly, poked my heart but soon after got immune to it. No wonder people say the truth hurts, but oh well.

PW results were out tdy and only 23% got As while 71% got Bs. Like OMG, its SO difficult to get an A! That's it! More stress! :(

Work is piling up! Tutorials to complete and tests to study for. And another draft of PI to complete bcoz I realised that I missed out something VERY important in my previous draft! -.-

Apart from the CRAZY work load, classmates are the best! Prolly the only class that talks while running during PE. Haha!

Celebrated Bingqiang's birthday today during lunch break. Happy 18th dude! :) WE LOVE THE HIMBO OF S12! Oops, his pants is gonna burst again! HAHAHAHAHA!

Well, that's about it. I need sleep :(

P.S. Wad asses! But hey! Stop! Dun assume things! Snobbish people do exist, but we can never read their minds, just thank God, u're not like them! Gossips, and politics? Just not wad i like, so u can forget abt it :) But just wait, I'm not the kind that sits around and watch things happen! ^.- Will bust those asses, just wait!

P.S.S. Feels so cheated. But hey, time is precious. Move on Naz.

Goodbye! :)

2010-04-11T16:18:00.004+08:00

YAY! Finally finished the 2nd draft of PI w/o distractions! CRAZY PEOPLE! I never knew people get CRAZIER as they get older! (Hints at Shan ^^) But oh well, I like it that way (Sings in the I WANT IT THAT WAY tune) Ok, wadeva. Haha! Oh i forgot to blog about this yest!

Ms Lim (Bio teacher) : Nazira, who is your CT?
Me : Ms Ng, Serene Ng
Ms Lim : OH U'RE FROM S12? SAME CLASS AS HUI LIN?
Me : (looking shocked, yet smiling) Yes S12 and ya, same class as Hui Lin :)
Ms Lim : OHHHHHHHH! (Laughs) I always thought u were from an art class!
Me: ART CLASS!?!
Ms Lim : (Laughs) YA! Sry! U look like an Art Student! (Laughs again)
Me : (Laughs) Really? I look like an art student?
Ms Lim : YA!

HAHA! My teacher thought I was an Art student! How cool is that?! HAHAHA!

Anyways, I'M SO HAPPY I FINALLY GOT THINGS SETTLED WITH MY MIND! Like Pooja says, "Sometimes its difficult to know what you want so fast." So lets just stick to doing what I like ya!? I wldn't forget the canoe moments though :) They taught me ALOT though my stay was only a SHORT one :) Push ups, pull ups, inclined pull ups, crunches, squats, boats, paddles, runs, speed, timing! Whoaaaa! A crazy world! But I went through all my trainings w/o giving up and doing wad i was asked of, finishing every task. Not forgetting the day when I managed to row out within just a few weeks of water training though my paddling and balancing wasn't perfect. As far as that is concerned, I'm happy and satisfied :) I may not be like certain seniors whom Christ and Atiqah reagards as 'PERFECT' because they are good at practically everything, but I do look up to them :) I miss Macritchie! HAHA! Somehow, it feels perfect to be imperfect! How cool and WEIRD is that?! Wadeva, I'm weird and I.... Like.... It..... That.... Way.... :D:D:D:D:D

I miss loads of people! And I can't wait for hols to come again! HAHAHA! But till then, its another hectic week ahead. So i better finish up my tamil compo! :O HAHA! Oh, and I forgot to include, I've lost 4kg oredi!!! MORE TO GO!!!! YEAAAA! (Follows Stan's rugby style!)

P.S. There's still a missing piece and it sucks to know what it is but not being able to get it :( The heart feels blank but the mind is moving on. The Human body is really the greatest creation of God's!? Haha :)

Goodbye :)

2010-04-10T07:55:00.003+08:00

I'm still in a dilemma! :( Did i mention it feels so useless not being able to make up your mind on what you want. I dun even noe if this is wad i want anymore bcoz I've got interest in SOOOOOOO many things! Haiz, this sucks!

Apart from those, canoe seniors were having their competition the whole of this wk. And I must say they did VERY VERY well. 3/4 of them went to the finals. And i think PJ won 2 silvers and 1 bronze! WOW! This must've been such an achievement b4 they graduate! I'm so happy for them! :)

Oh and our dance competition last week, we didn't make it in :( Sadly :( UCC performance coming up next month. Practice has started. And we're dancing valayapatti again. Sec 3 memories :( Haha.

Apart from these, school has been getting more and more fun! :) But it sucks to stay up in sch everyday and just study, occasionally staring at the track and seeing people run, then to be busy running around with activities like how it was last year. It feels useless not being busy, i dunno why. And ppl think PA CCAs are supposed to be slack :( So heartbroken :( I can't make a decision and I'm not letting people make it for me. The funny thing is, I'm not regretting the decision I made at first! Wad an ASS! Ok wadeva, better get back to work. I'm so behind time :(

2010-04-03T12:25:00.003+08:00

I almost deleted this crap but realised later that I didn't have the heart to :) Muahahaha!

Anyways, you know when you were young, you try so hard to please the 'grown-ups' that everything you do, you try and do it right. In an attempt to do that, some things can go wrong. And when they find out that you've done the wrong thing, they would scold you and maybe even pull your morale down so low. How could you have known then that wad you did was wrong? At that moment, the excitement you had to prove to 'them' that you're good, vanishes and it all boils down to feeling like dirt and that you're of no use at all. Its weird why I rmbed this all of a sudden but it just got me thinking if I made the right choice by quitting canoe. It has been a few weeks now since I quitted, devoting the rest of my time to dance. I guess its only natural for a PA person to do PA again like how a sports person do sports again. But does that mean PA aren't cut out for sports and that sports aren't cut out for PA? Or maybe is it just me? Why the segregation? Why not just follow wad you want? Then the question hits me : "Naz, wad do you want? You can't have the best of both worlds."

And I'm still pondering over that. I am not a quitter, I know. But to want smth, dun you need the passion for it? Wad is my passion? I know, deep down that it has always been abt performing. That's wad I've always liked. But i also noe deep down that I like training up and feeling fit! And getting all those medals from competitions! So here comes the question now that I am stuck in between. Wad do I want?

I'll ponder over that but meanwhile, tmr's Aratana competition and we got to make it in! Wish us luck! :) I can't wait! :) Now i gotta go get ready, going to my Aunt's place! And i gotta finish all my homeworks today! Oh I am done with the PI crap! Handed in the first draft but i think its gonna come back with loads of red marks.! I was half asleep while writing it! Haha, because I was dng it at 2+ am and in the midst of being half conscious, some bio stuff came up in the PI! Thank god I looked at it again b4 handing it up! HAHA! How weird. This is wad happens when u do smth in a half conscious mind e day after a bio test! HAHA! Yet again, its amazing how the brain works! :)

HAHA! See ya! ;) Feels so good to be back! :)

P.S. The priorities are set but rite now I am stuck in between the mind and the heart. One says yes while the other asks, you sure about this? which do i choose? :'(

P.S.S It sucks to have so many quesions running in your head!

2010-03-05T19:59:00.004+08:00

I was supposed to be doing some stupid PW research but decided to side track for a while :) Hehe :) This week has been hell but fun! I liked it! :) PE was great! BCOZ! I ran 1.6 in 10.50!! Our time limit was 11 and i made it on time! WOOTS! I think soon we'll be running 2.4 which i can't wait. I need to hit e 14 mins again! WOOTS! I'm just so happy my stamina's back on track again! WOOHOO!! School has been getting better and better.

Classmates are getting more and more retarded or crazier which makes everything more fun! I've got a classmate who keeps singing when she's bored. I sing along with her if i noe the song then my whole row follows! Then the teachers stare at us as though we just did e most retarded thing on earth! HAHA! Oh I LOVE MY PW GROUP! Haha! Another crazy bunch! We NEVER listen during PW tutorials. Hence we're always bombarded with alot of questions and we're always praised for the answers we give! COOL or WAD! HAHAHAHA! I know, we rock! And then lessons? As i said, i love all my H2 subjects! Chemistry's seriously getting a pain in the ass! It was alot easier in sec 4!! Haha. And then Maths, I simply LOVE APGP! Its like the simplest thing on earth! And then I love every Econs tutorial because i love all my Econs tutorial teachers :) I like my Chem teacher too so i only look forward to tutorials and not lectures -.- Because they are 1 and a half hours LOOOOOONG! When the rest are only 1 hr long! OH! OH! I Like my Maths teacher's voice. VERY SEXY! Its a male, DUH! HAHAHA! Hopefully they dun change the lecture teacher! HAHAHAHA! Bio has been getting over my head! There's so much content for just a H1 subject! But wadeva, took it, so do it :( But my bio teacher is really nice :) I like the way she dresses up everyday :) Ok, wadeva. HAHA!

And then I'm still in a dilemma about CCA. Its ok so far. Like HELLO! I completed a 6km run! I can do the rest too! :D But the CCA's just no fun. In a sense that there's not much interactions between the seniors and juniors. Is it how it is in all sports CCAs? I dunno. But i want those big muscles and nicely shaped thighs!!!!!!!!!! Hehehehehe! But you know wad, I'm staying :) Oh i saw Rishab tdy and guess wad he is joining CHOIR in his school! HAHAHA! Oh Rishab also said that sports ppl are very lame and that they act cool most of the time! HAHA! Which means, PA ppl are SO NOT LAME and we definitely DO NOT HAVE TO ACT COOL BCOZ WE ARE COOL!!! HAHAHAHAHAHA! YESSSSS!!!! I agree with the PA ppl being cool part, but hmmmm.... sports? We'll check tht out! HAHA!

Oh and currently PJ's having SC elections. So all the SC wannabes are spending time on their one-liners and campaignings. HAHA. So PJians, VOTE FOR POOJA, JESSE, OLIVIA and YINGYING from 10S12! Because, our class ROCKS BIG TIME! :) I wonder if there wld even be any PJians reading this. But oh well, just know, my class rocks! :)

Goodbye! Can't wait for 4/5 gathering! :)